Closure and Tribute to Michael Jackson
This is going to be long, so bear with me if you read this. I´m mostly doing it because I need to, I need closure in this and this is my way of getting it.
By now maybe a lot of people are tired of hearing Michael Jackson's name, or think everything that is going on is so over the top. Could be. Don't know.
But what is true, a fact, is that this man reached so many people around the world that his death is being headlines and discussed to no end even weeks after it happened. It doesn't matter if some people didn´t like him or his music, or believed or not those accusations, or think he was a nut case.
He was an icon. Now he's a legend.
I'm going to be honest and say that I never was a fan like the ones we see on TV wearing the gloves, the hats, the jackets, all his trademark fashion, or that I knew all his songs. I was just another music lover who knew he was an important artist, liked his songs and his moves, was amazed at his shows and his videos and knew the lyrics of his most successfull songs. I never really had an opinion about the problems and issues he had with the law and about those accusations, I always gave him the benefit of the doubt and now I'm glad.
So for all those reasons, I was so surprised at how hard it hit me when I first knew he had died.
I couldn't believe it, it was surreal. When I was watching in every single channel the news, I just kept thinking that we really never know what we have until is taken away from us. This saying could be a cliche, but in so many cases it's true. For me, this was one of those cases. The other thing going on in my head was how he was judged, accused, criticized, and what not, and now he was gone, none of that had any meaning anymore.
As I wasn't a hardcore fan of his, I learned a lot about him in these last few days. Most of them about his personality and the possible reason of his behavior. I really never thought much of it, he was just like that, he was way too famous, had way too much money: that was not normal so why would we want him to behave normally?
I think there are a lot of reasons why I'm so sad by his passing, I still get teary eyed thinking about it. Maybe a lot of people will agree with me that he and his music were part of us growing up, and now he's gone and it seems he took away with him that little part of us, never to be recovered. Those good old times are gone, never to come back again, just like him.
Another reason, one that has more to do with being just human, is that he really lived a tragic life.
I don't believe he was truly happy, it seemed to me he was trying to prove his father wrong. To prove to him that all those things he used to say to him as a kid were not true, and at the same time, as he so desperately tried to explain to us in "Childhood", he was trying to compensate for a childhood he only dreamt about. He felt he was fated to do that, to look for that world we live in in those early days of our lives, so he just created it for himself, and that is something nobody could understand.
Sadly, along the way, he just lost himself. He was a victim of his own fame and success, of his greatness, of his desire to be accepted. He didn't realize people already loved him, that he didn't need to wear a mask for that to happen. But again, the scars he had from when he was a kid were still there, visible and ever present to him. If we didn't go through what he did, we can't know if we would have done the same.
But now, none of that is important anymore. He's still gone. And his family and kids miss him, not as we do because as his sister Janet said: for us, he was an icon, but for them, he was family. He was a son, their little brother and a father.
I just know that I will remember him for his music, his dancing, his voice, his unique fashion, his innovations, for how he helped so many organizations around the world and also for the message he was trying to convey in his songs, he was really into helping to change the world. And he did, in a lot of ways.
I just hope most of the people remember him this way too.
Yes, I will remember him as the greatest entertainer that ever lived, as the King of Pop, the King with the incredible talent and vision, as well as the King with a tragic life.
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