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Another counselling. Jacob is supposed to work on getting his homework done. I'm supposed to work on getting up on time and he is supposed to make a schedule for me to "approve" and we are supposed to have 2 dates this week.
Right. Ok. So. And I'm quitting Awana. We don't need that bs in our lives. I've never felt wanted or loved at our church. I love going there, but honestly have never ever felt that reciprocated. And now........we are the people who never follow thru, who always flake, and why do we even bother to volunteer anyway? WTF??? Well, now they are without a Games Director and a Cubbies Director. And Ms. Church secretary should think about how christian she is being before she spews her opinions toward others. Backstabbing mean things shouldn't be said at all, but especially not in a public setting. And it's not really her place to spend 15 minutes telling me she thinks my mom is basically fat and stupid. Really? That's her idea of being a loving christian? And Ms. Commander of the supreme universe should keep in mind that her volunteers are just that, volunteers. Just because she does not have children at home doesn't mean that those of us who do are less important. If she isn't careful, she is going to lose a lot more of her volunteers. I got a SUPREME cold shoulder tonight. My one leader who I work with was super nice (not that she knows how to be anything else) and that was about it. I think....I've had enough of church. My family can go or not, as they see fit. But I have had enough of it. No more stress and bull shit. I love my God. But I don't have to go to church to express that love. I'll miss a few things/people. But really, that's enough.
Right. Ok. So. And I'm quitting Awana. We don't need that bs in our lives. I've never felt wanted or loved at our church. I love going there, but honestly have never ever felt that reciprocated. And now........we are the people who never follow thru, who always flake, and why do we even bother to volunteer anyway? WTF??? Well, now they are without a Games Director and a Cubbies Director. And Ms. Church secretary should think about how christian she is being before she spews her opinions toward others. Backstabbing mean things shouldn't be said at all, but especially not in a public setting. And it's not really her place to spend 15 minutes telling me she thinks my mom is basically fat and stupid. Really? That's her idea of being a loving christian? And Ms. Commander of the supreme universe should keep in mind that her volunteers are just that, volunteers. Just because she does not have children at home doesn't mean that those of us who do are less important. If she isn't careful, she is going to lose a lot more of her volunteers. I got a SUPREME cold shoulder tonight. My one leader who I work with was super nice (not that she knows how to be anything else) and that was about it. I think....I've had enough of church. My family can go or not, as they see fit. But I have had enough of it. No more stress and bull shit. I love my God. But I don't have to go to church to express that love. I'll miss a few things/people. But really, that's enough.