Hey Kids!
Hm. It's good to see that so many of my friends that I haven't seen or actually talked to in forever take the time to make posts about what's going on. It's not really fair for me to read your lives and never update. So, it may take too long to update the stuff that is really bothering me, so I'll just go with what's been happening lately.
1. I'm a married woman now. I think this last Saturday was our 1 month anniversary. It still blows my mind to hear the word "husband" associated with me. It is also a testiment to how tuly unpredictable life is.
*Roman if you're reading: thanks for being at the ready to marry us! We were totally spontaneous about it and found a rad lesbian who performed our hippy-ish ceremony exactly how we wanted it and in short order.
2. I have decided to be an author. I feel like I have so much to say and there is no reason that Tori Spelling can write a book and I can't.
3. I finally found a car that screams "KENDRA" and I LOVE it. It's kind of a double edged sword though. I feel like such a consumer sometimes. Somehow I feel like it validates all of the hard work and sacrifice. It just kind of fucked up that it takes a material item to serve as a physical symbol of accomplishment. Oh, but this is just a drop in the bucket.
4. I am about to kick this shit into overdrive. I feel a bit like a recluse these days and it's only going to get worse. I had an "a-ha" moment today when I was talking to a co-worker. We (Rob and I) are dealing with some fucked up issues that most people never gain experience with their entire lives and I feel like we're handling it pretty well. I feel like were at a critical point in the dealing process and these next months are imperitive to how we come out the other side. So, I would like to apologize in advance if my interactions with my friends are limited to electronic...
I also realized that along with the OD that I've had to kick my life into is kind of the basis for where most of my friend base went. I used to have TONS of friends. I realize now, that I am going in completely different directions than most if my friends. Not to say that I'm better or anything crazy like that, but the different directions leads me to draw closer to myself. If my priorities and goals are not somewhat inline with yours, there is a good chance that we won't be talking for a while. Not because I hate you or anything, but it seems to work best when I surround myself with similar or better to motivate me to work harder. Quite frankly, it looks as if a good portion of people I used to know are being idiots right now. I don't have time for that shit.
Although I havent talked to you guys in a long time:
Devin: I'm glad to see you're home and making progress in the positive. I rarely get up to Everett anymore but I can't wait to see you. I don't even know if I know how to contact you. I just want to give you a big hug and welcome you home! Put my number in your phone if you don't already have it!!! 425.239.5026
Michelle: I've been trying to follow the "Saga of Shelly" but I may have missed a few parts. It sounds like you have made decisions about staying home and deciding what you want to do here. I don't know what your majoring in, but it sounds like you have to take accounting. Taking it from me (a previous business major) not only is accounting not your cup of tea, it's NO ONE'S cup of tea. I have one more accounting class to finish out the series and I FUCKING HATE IT!!!!! I wish I could tell you it gets better but it certianly does not. But, I am kiiiiiiiiind of looking forward to stats. now that you mentioned that it isn't that bad. Either way, I haven't seen you since that party at Ian's and I know how you feel about the making time for friends thing. Are you still in Ballard? You're fairly close. I live in Greenlake. I have taken to playing beach volleyball at Golden Gardens about 2 or 3 times a month. I've decided to check out the Mountaineers volleyball drop in games at Greenlake on Thursday evenings. Perhaps you would like to accompany me one of these days? I'm not sure what your sched. is like, but maybe we can meet in Greenwood for coffee or something?
Erin: Grrrrrrl. I know I mostly know you through LJ and the Ian Plagmann's ex girlfriend club, but I totally feel you on some of the shit you've been talking about lately. I know it feels weird living your own life based on your own decisions and dealing with all the shit that comes from that (panic attacks about EVERYTHING...I know I'm STILL there) but everything comes so clear in those little "aha" moments. I rememeber a few moments of clairity that came to me a kept me motivated to make changes and do shit how I want to do it despite feeling like a failure before I have even started. I still wake in the middle of the night distraught over what I'm going to do with my life and how I'm going to do it...but I feel like the minute you start to stop thinking about it, is when you submit to mediocrity. If you wanted mediocrity, you'd be living in Everett content with never going anywhere or doing anything because it never occurs to you to stress over it. I'm glad I know you, kinda. It gives me comfort to know that I'm not alone. I know it's something that gets thrown around a lot lately, but we should get together. I mean it. Are you downtown? 425.239.5026
David: It sounds like you're making progress!!!! w00t for you, mang! I know you're not completely where you want to be yet but it all takes time. It kills me that you sometimes stess about the bitches situation, you're too cool for that. I'd like to tell you to mellow and it will all happen when you least expect it, but everyone probably tells you that. So...I'll tell you to Keep On Truckin'!
Steve: I haven't talked to you in a Looooooooong time! It sounds like a good idea for you to move back to Michigan for a little while. You can recharge with a whhhoooooole 'nother system of people who love and miss you. Good. Your progress is inspiring also. I envy the pick up and go somewhere else thing. I need to know the secret.
So there you have it. I'm here in the shadows...I keep up with your lives (at least though LJ and Myspace). I miss you all!
1. I'm a married woman now. I think this last Saturday was our 1 month anniversary. It still blows my mind to hear the word "husband" associated with me. It is also a testiment to how tuly unpredictable life is.
*Roman if you're reading: thanks for being at the ready to marry us! We were totally spontaneous about it and found a rad lesbian who performed our hippy-ish ceremony exactly how we wanted it and in short order.
2. I have decided to be an author. I feel like I have so much to say and there is no reason that Tori Spelling can write a book and I can't.
3. I finally found a car that screams "KENDRA" and I LOVE it. It's kind of a double edged sword though. I feel like such a consumer sometimes. Somehow I feel like it validates all of the hard work and sacrifice. It just kind of fucked up that it takes a material item to serve as a physical symbol of accomplishment. Oh, but this is just a drop in the bucket.
4. I am about to kick this shit into overdrive. I feel a bit like a recluse these days and it's only going to get worse. I had an "a-ha" moment today when I was talking to a co-worker. We (Rob and I) are dealing with some fucked up issues that most people never gain experience with their entire lives and I feel like we're handling it pretty well. I feel like were at a critical point in the dealing process and these next months are imperitive to how we come out the other side. So, I would like to apologize in advance if my interactions with my friends are limited to electronic...
I also realized that along with the OD that I've had to kick my life into is kind of the basis for where most of my friend base went. I used to have TONS of friends. I realize now, that I am going in completely different directions than most if my friends. Not to say that I'm better or anything crazy like that, but the different directions leads me to draw closer to myself. If my priorities and goals are not somewhat inline with yours, there is a good chance that we won't be talking for a while. Not because I hate you or anything, but it seems to work best when I surround myself with similar or better to motivate me to work harder. Quite frankly, it looks as if a good portion of people I used to know are being idiots right now. I don't have time for that shit.
Although I havent talked to you guys in a long time:
Devin: I'm glad to see you're home and making progress in the positive. I rarely get up to Everett anymore but I can't wait to see you. I don't even know if I know how to contact you. I just want to give you a big hug and welcome you home! Put my number in your phone if you don't already have it!!! 425.239.5026
Michelle: I've been trying to follow the "Saga of Shelly" but I may have missed a few parts. It sounds like you have made decisions about staying home and deciding what you want to do here. I don't know what your majoring in, but it sounds like you have to take accounting. Taking it from me (a previous business major) not only is accounting not your cup of tea, it's NO ONE'S cup of tea. I have one more accounting class to finish out the series and I FUCKING HATE IT!!!!! I wish I could tell you it gets better but it certianly does not. But, I am kiiiiiiiiind of looking forward to stats. now that you mentioned that it isn't that bad. Either way, I haven't seen you since that party at Ian's and I know how you feel about the making time for friends thing. Are you still in Ballard? You're fairly close. I live in Greenlake. I have taken to playing beach volleyball at Golden Gardens about 2 or 3 times a month. I've decided to check out the Mountaineers volleyball drop in games at Greenlake on Thursday evenings. Perhaps you would like to accompany me one of these days? I'm not sure what your sched. is like, but maybe we can meet in Greenwood for coffee or something?
Erin: Grrrrrrl. I know I mostly know you through LJ and the Ian Plagmann's ex girlfriend club, but I totally feel you on some of the shit you've been talking about lately. I know it feels weird living your own life based on your own decisions and dealing with all the shit that comes from that (panic attacks about EVERYTHING...I know I'm STILL there) but everything comes so clear in those little "aha" moments. I rememeber a few moments of clairity that came to me a kept me motivated to make changes and do shit how I want to do it despite feeling like a failure before I have even started. I still wake in the middle of the night distraught over what I'm going to do with my life and how I'm going to do it...but I feel like the minute you start to stop thinking about it, is when you submit to mediocrity. If you wanted mediocrity, you'd be living in Everett content with never going anywhere or doing anything because it never occurs to you to stress over it. I'm glad I know you, kinda. It gives me comfort to know that I'm not alone. I know it's something that gets thrown around a lot lately, but we should get together. I mean it. Are you downtown? 425.239.5026
David: It sounds like you're making progress!!!! w00t for you, mang! I know you're not completely where you want to be yet but it all takes time. It kills me that you sometimes stess about the bitches situation, you're too cool for that. I'd like to tell you to mellow and it will all happen when you least expect it, but everyone probably tells you that. So...I'll tell you to Keep On Truckin'!
Steve: I haven't talked to you in a Looooooooong time! It sounds like a good idea for you to move back to Michigan for a little while. You can recharge with a whhhoooooole 'nother system of people who love and miss you. Good. Your progress is inspiring also. I envy the pick up and go somewhere else thing. I need to know the secret.
So there you have it. I'm here in the shadows...I keep up with your lives (at least though LJ and Myspace). I miss you all!