I'm every woman...
Friends,
Despite the fact that things suck, I'm feeling pretty empowered! I'm feeling strong. This period of forced solitude has made me realize a few things about myself that are quite a pleasant surprise!
The MOST important: Through all of the shit that's been going on, I still am madly in love with Rob. I know 100% that it is him, will always be him and can only see him as the father of my children. I'm smiling even as I write this about my blonde haired, green eyed, six foot-two man that I love. He is my heart.
Also, I've realized that I am fine by myself. Of course I knew this already and have always been the type of person who enjoys their own company, but I dont HAVE to let shitty circumstances ruin eveything else for me. I guess what I'm saying is, even though I recognize the world as a shitty place and the people who live in it as mostly ass-backwards stupid, I can still triumph.
I can do anything. I wanted to turn our "Lola Room" into an office and it's about half way there. First I had to demo a 6 foot sofa to get it out of the basement in pieces and I did. All I needed was a hammer, an electric saw blade, and some deeply burried anger and resentment.
Then I drive to IKEA myself, in the rain, dark, and rush hour on a Friday evening. Got lost a few times but made it one piece. Bough a desk and put the son of a bitch together myself. I LOVE IT!
I never was very good with computer components but I scouted a 40 dollar used LCD monitor, and some bad ass computer speakers and hooked that shit up!!!
I cooked myself a down home country meal of fried chicken and wheat corn bread. Finished my homework and started on legal proceedings for my man.
NOW WHAT BITCHES!? The best part is, I KNOW this is only a fraction of what I can do given the time and motivation.
My motivation: Robby coming home to a nice place to work and know that he has nothing to worry about when he's away.
God, I know you throw some crazy shit at us, but we're handling it. As much as I complain about what other people DONT have to deal with, I know youre looking out and we will both have our day.
Despite the fact that things suck, I'm feeling pretty empowered! I'm feeling strong. This period of forced solitude has made me realize a few things about myself that are quite a pleasant surprise!
The MOST important: Through all of the shit that's been going on, I still am madly in love with Rob. I know 100% that it is him, will always be him and can only see him as the father of my children. I'm smiling even as I write this about my blonde haired, green eyed, six foot-two man that I love. He is my heart.
Also, I've realized that I am fine by myself. Of course I knew this already and have always been the type of person who enjoys their own company, but I dont HAVE to let shitty circumstances ruin eveything else for me. I guess what I'm saying is, even though I recognize the world as a shitty place and the people who live in it as mostly ass-backwards stupid, I can still triumph.
I can do anything. I wanted to turn our "Lola Room" into an office and it's about half way there. First I had to demo a 6 foot sofa to get it out of the basement in pieces and I did. All I needed was a hammer, an electric saw blade, and some deeply burried anger and resentment.
Then I drive to IKEA myself, in the rain, dark, and rush hour on a Friday evening. Got lost a few times but made it one piece. Bough a desk and put the son of a bitch together myself. I LOVE IT!
I never was very good with computer components but I scouted a 40 dollar used LCD monitor, and some bad ass computer speakers and hooked that shit up!!!
I cooked myself a down home country meal of fried chicken and wheat corn bread. Finished my homework and started on legal proceedings for my man.
NOW WHAT BITCHES!? The best part is, I KNOW this is only a fraction of what I can do given the time and motivation.
My motivation: Robby coming home to a nice place to work and know that he has nothing to worry about when he's away.
God, I know you throw some crazy shit at us, but we're handling it. As much as I complain about what other people DONT have to deal with, I know youre looking out and we will both have our day.