I hate the way I feel
If you don't have time for me in your crazy busy life now while I am alive and well ,I really don't wan't you to change you schedule around to sit at my "deathbed" and watch me die and / or go to my funereal.I don't need your company when I am dead , I want it when I am alive and kicking ,even if its a email once a week of what is going on in 3 sentences or a I" like" to some thing I posted , just any thing small thing that lets me know you took 2 mins out your day 2 think of me ,while I was alive,not light a candle when I am dead