Bet you thought I was dead
Nope, not dead. Not yet. Just not had much time to even thing about posting in my journal. Been doing a lot of thinking and reading. Everything else has been work and kids and work. We had a nice vacation, but Amber posted about that and most of my friends here are on her friends list as well. Spent some time at the beach which was very relaxing. I did something there that was pretty cool...
I've been doing some meditation (okay, maybe a lot) lately. While we're on vacation I'm still used to getting up very early so I'm almost always awake about the time the sun's coming up. I head down to the beach with the beach chairs and the umbrella and get a nice choice spot and then sit on the beach and watch the sun rise over the Atlantic Ocean and then meditate. Well ... on particular morning I was sitting there listening to the waves and the seaguls and just concentrating on my breathing. Not making it happen but on the cycle of breath itself. Thoughts were drifting through my head but I tried to just let them drift and then go away, not holding on to anything. And then it happened. Everything stopped. My mind was completely blank and and with the next breath I took it was like I took in a breath of the world. Everything came with me and when I exhaled, the world too that breath as it's own. It was happy, peace, joy, love and kindness. I'm not sure how long I sat there like that with the universe breathing with me it felt like an eternity and at the same time not even a heartbeat. I understand the Buddha's desire to bring this to the world. Buddhist Monks promise to not enter nirvana and continue the birth and death cycle until all man-kind is enlightened. I get it. I know why.
It's had a pretty deep impact on me and just furthered push my studies of Buddhism and what not. Now I just think I need a guide or teacher to help me continue on. But I don't think there's much in the way of options for me in hick-ville. I'll dig and see what I can find.
anyway ... there you go. that's the last couple weeks for me.
I've been doing some meditation (okay, maybe a lot) lately. While we're on vacation I'm still used to getting up very early so I'm almost always awake about the time the sun's coming up. I head down to the beach with the beach chairs and the umbrella and get a nice choice spot and then sit on the beach and watch the sun rise over the Atlantic Ocean and then meditate. Well ... on particular morning I was sitting there listening to the waves and the seaguls and just concentrating on my breathing. Not making it happen but on the cycle of breath itself. Thoughts were drifting through my head but I tried to just let them drift and then go away, not holding on to anything. And then it happened. Everything stopped. My mind was completely blank and and with the next breath I took it was like I took in a breath of the world. Everything came with me and when I exhaled, the world too that breath as it's own. It was happy, peace, joy, love and kindness. I'm not sure how long I sat there like that with the universe breathing with me it felt like an eternity and at the same time not even a heartbeat. I understand the Buddha's desire to bring this to the world. Buddhist Monks promise to not enter nirvana and continue the birth and death cycle until all man-kind is enlightened. I get it. I know why.
It's had a pretty deep impact on me and just furthered push my studies of Buddhism and what not. Now I just think I need a guide or teacher to help me continue on. But I don't think there's much in the way of options for me in hick-ville. I'll dig and see what I can find.
anyway ... there you go. that's the last couple weeks for me.