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i've never...
struggled with drug addictions, faced discrimination for my sexuality, had the only person in my life who means anything to me walk away, been lied to over & over, been abused by my lover, been disowned & forced out on my own, watched someone close writhing in pain, been drugged raped & left for naught, been beaten by my own mother & father, faced abandonment & threats by my own family, been robbed at gunpoint & beaten within an inch of death, been forced to sit helplessly & watch my father beat my mother, watched a best friend die, supported a family, gotten a phone call at 4:13 in the morning asking me to identify a body, lost my mother to cancer, or lost my lover to something that might as well be.
but some of you have.
that's just a tiny piece of what's happened in just a few lives.
all the more has been felt, thought, & dwelled upon.
we're all headed somewhere. it's not really where that matters, just that we're going. we've made our own choices, we have our own unique pasts, but we're all going somewhere. what we're doing (or at least trying to do) makes sense & feels right to us, even if it doesn't to someone else. i've made my choices, she's made hers, he's made his, and you've made yours. no better, no worse. just different.
i started going somewhere else than you a long time ago.
i'm in no place to judge you.
don't ever judge me.
struggled with drug addictions, faced discrimination for my sexuality, had the only person in my life who means anything to me walk away, been lied to over & over, been abused by my lover, been disowned & forced out on my own, watched someone close writhing in pain, been drugged raped & left for naught, been beaten by my own mother & father, faced abandonment & threats by my own family, been robbed at gunpoint & beaten within an inch of death, been forced to sit helplessly & watch my father beat my mother, watched a best friend die, supported a family, gotten a phone call at 4:13 in the morning asking me to identify a body, lost my mother to cancer, or lost my lover to something that might as well be.
but some of you have.
that's just a tiny piece of what's happened in just a few lives.
all the more has been felt, thought, & dwelled upon.
we're all headed somewhere. it's not really where that matters, just that we're going. we've made our own choices, we have our own unique pasts, but we're all going somewhere. what we're doing (or at least trying to do) makes sense & feels right to us, even if it doesn't to someone else. i've made my choices, she's made hers, he's made his, and you've made yours. no better, no worse. just different.
i started going somewhere else than you a long time ago.
i'm in no place to judge you.
don't ever judge me.