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do you ever wonder, "where did my life go?"
and you think about all the things you've done and haven't done in the past xx years of your life, and sometimes you wish you could go back to certain days, and other times you wish you could erase them or re-live the past just for the purpose of putting things right, but in the end you come back to where you are and to the realization that the past is, indeed the past, and it cannot and never will change, regardless of how much you spend your time thinking about it. it's scary to think i'm already half-way through my college "life" -- it's scary because i haven't done anything towards making my "mark" in the world, i guess. but maybe it's not about "making the mark" -- maybe it's simply about enjoying what you have, and realizing that this is it -- regardless of my satisfaction level with my life, this present is all that i have.
despite what people tell us, maybe it's not all about the big names, the high class societies, the 'saving the world' bull shit (sorry, but i think it's bull to want to save the world -- who ever said this world needs saving in the first place? it's the people that live on this fucking planet that have the problems) -- maybe it's okay to just live one day at a time, make a little money here and there to support your life style, travel some, see the world, experience a different means of living, and to have realistic, short-sighted goals. i find my daily reason to go a footstep forward in a cup of coffee to be more motivating than my future goal to become a huge success. i mean really, how many people get up in the morning because they are thinking, "I can't wait until I'm 40 and a money making MACHINEEEEE!!!" yeah, ridiculous. but if you do, that's honestly great for you, and keep it going -- it'll probably get you places (i say probably because i wouldn't know - i haven't been to these so-called 'places').
and of course i get the after thought every time i go through these quote"e, "pensive" moments, that i'm probably generalizing people into a group of nomadic souls wandering the forests of life and sometimes loosing it, because i'm exactly just that - a lost fool in a world that seems all-too bitter to those of us that don't know half of what it means to live. if i was a success, if i was good at what i was doing, if i was mentally stable (for christ's sake), i probably wouldn't be here contemplating my life. but then again, it seems so many people go through this process, that it makes me wonder if maybe there is significantly less people who are "sure" of themselves in comparison to those who are still in the process of finding a reason to be.
our paths are independent of one another, and when it comes down to it, i sincerely believe we are always on our own and have no one but ourselves to depend on. but at the same time, i know i'd never have made it through if it weren't for certain people in my life that i love more than anything else in the world. this is precisely why i am able to say, i hope that those of you wandering aimlessly as i am, will find what you are looking for, and if not, find something else that is of significant value to you. your life may not be the brightest star in the sky, but it is the only one you have, and you may as well enjoy it while it lasts.
happy traveling.
<3you all.
and you think about all the things you've done and haven't done in the past xx years of your life, and sometimes you wish you could go back to certain days, and other times you wish you could erase them or re-live the past just for the purpose of putting things right, but in the end you come back to where you are and to the realization that the past is, indeed the past, and it cannot and never will change, regardless of how much you spend your time thinking about it. it's scary to think i'm already half-way through my college "life" -- it's scary because i haven't done anything towards making my "mark" in the world, i guess. but maybe it's not about "making the mark" -- maybe it's simply about enjoying what you have, and realizing that this is it -- regardless of my satisfaction level with my life, this present is all that i have.
despite what people tell us, maybe it's not all about the big names, the high class societies, the 'saving the world' bull shit (sorry, but i think it's bull to want to save the world -- who ever said this world needs saving in the first place? it's the people that live on this fucking planet that have the problems) -- maybe it's okay to just live one day at a time, make a little money here and there to support your life style, travel some, see the world, experience a different means of living, and to have realistic, short-sighted goals. i find my daily reason to go a footstep forward in a cup of coffee to be more motivating than my future goal to become a huge success. i mean really, how many people get up in the morning because they are thinking, "I can't wait until I'm 40 and a money making MACHINEEEEE!!!" yeah, ridiculous. but if you do, that's honestly great for you, and keep it going -- it'll probably get you places (i say probably because i wouldn't know - i haven't been to these so-called 'places').
and of course i get the after thought every time i go through these quote"e, "pensive" moments, that i'm probably generalizing people into a group of nomadic souls wandering the forests of life and sometimes loosing it, because i'm exactly just that - a lost fool in a world that seems all-too bitter to those of us that don't know half of what it means to live. if i was a success, if i was good at what i was doing, if i was mentally stable (for christ's sake), i probably wouldn't be here contemplating my life. but then again, it seems so many people go through this process, that it makes me wonder if maybe there is significantly less people who are "sure" of themselves in comparison to those who are still in the process of finding a reason to be.
our paths are independent of one another, and when it comes down to it, i sincerely believe we are always on our own and have no one but ourselves to depend on. but at the same time, i know i'd never have made it through if it weren't for certain people in my life that i love more than anything else in the world. this is precisely why i am able to say, i hope that those of you wandering aimlessly as i am, will find what you are looking for, and if not, find something else that is of significant value to you. your life may not be the brightest star in the sky, but it is the only one you have, and you may as well enjoy it while it lasts.
happy traveling.
<3you all.