Speed of the Weiner Dog, Dashing Daschund Destroys Denver!
I feel like this sometimes. I've been trying to ride my bike more. I haven't drank soda in weeks. I haven't opened up or played anything but a case of Phoenix Wright in almost a month. What happened? Where did the time go? When did life become so hectic?
It's a strange thing when I find myself actually doing things. It doesn't happen to often but when it does it usually goes on for years. Regret, apprehension, and doubt continue to show up in my life. But, somewhere along the line I discovered I could tell them to go away. And they do! It's strange. I wonder when I picked my confidence up from Carla. She had it for a really long time.
I've been eating better, running pretty regularly, and losing weight. It's been a good couple months. My hair needs a trim, but I did what I never could before, and just let it grow and do what it wanted. All in all, the one place i've been slacking in lately is the school department. I'm so close to being done but i'm dragging. Senioritis was never something to slow me down before. But, I try to get my homework done, and too much tempts me away from it all. I say temptation when really it's my choice to begin with. But, with such possibility, who wouldn't?
So, here I sit, in the library at 530 on super bowl sunday wanting to do my Japanese homework and accomplishing little more than writing a ramble about my shamble of a life. Wait, is it a shamble? Actually, no it isn't. I used to think it was. I used to let someone do a lot of thinking for me; it didn't work out and now she won't talk to me without screaming.
She hates it when I think for myself.
At work, I was told today that I don't give off the impression that it's possible for me to have a one night stand. I don't know what to think about that. This combined with another thing someone told me, 'You feel feelings feelingly,' sort of hints that this might be true. I wonder if there is something I can do about that. I wonder if there is something I should do about that. I just don't know.