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I’ve been in a very bad mood the last few days. It’s around this time for the next few weeks when I start going into some pretty nasty mood swings and start feeling like my head is all over the place, because it was around this time two years ago when my Dad was admitted to the hospital and eventually passed away on my birthday in July.
Last year around this time was pretty rough, but I had some time to meditate and prepare for the “anniversary anxiety.” It still sucked. It kinda didn’t help that we had to have some sort of ceremony and reception on the exact date of my Dad’s passing, right on my birthday. It also didn’t help that my Dad’s side of the family were all being fucking twats. I didn’t do anything after that because I had such a clusterfuck headache, so I just stayed home.
This year, I had no time to prepare myself mentally for this year’s anniversary anxiety because in the past few weeks I had board exams and non-stop paperwork, exams and interviews with the US Navy (you’d think the shit would calm down ever since I swore-in for chrissake)… and right now for school I have final exams, the first draft of my thesis and a class project due at this time. We’ve also got complications at work too.
Last year around this time was pretty rough, but I had some time to meditate and prepare for the “anniversary anxiety.” It still sucked. It kinda didn’t help that we had to have some sort of ceremony and reception on the exact date of my Dad’s passing, right on my birthday. It also didn’t help that my Dad’s side of the family were all being fucking twats. I didn’t do anything after that because I had such a clusterfuck headache, so I just stayed home.
This year, I had no time to prepare myself mentally for this year’s anniversary anxiety because in the past few weeks I had board exams and non-stop paperwork, exams and interviews with the US Navy (you’d think the shit would calm down ever since I swore-in for chrissake)… and right now for school I have final exams, the first draft of my thesis and a class project due at this time. We’ve also got complications at work too.