**sigh**
There is no New Years for me this year. I procrastinated making plans so long, that everyone has already made thier plans, none of which include me. That was rather. . .saddening. Brian works until late that night. Poo.
Jamaica was amazing. The land, the people, the culture. It was all awesome. The resort was beautiful! I didn't want to come home at all, I just wanted to stay there and live off the land and make crafts to sell to sappy tourists. lol The only bad thing about the trip was the mosquitos, which was mostly more a small inconvience than anything major.
We spent most of christmas flying back to phoenix, which was ok. Jodi was waiting for us at the airport which was really nice. Especially with how cuthroat it was.
I don't know why I'm typing on here. I'm at work and just wanted to get stuff off my chest. I'm starting to feel like I don't really matter to people. It makes me really sad because it's the people I care most about. I feel like I'm always the one initiating anything and that they don't feel like I'm worth the effort. I don't know. I just need to feel like I mean something to my friends. I don't make any sense. I want to feel important and missed when I don't see people for awhile. I want a phone call or a text message or geez, even a myspace comment every once it a while that says they thought about me. I don't want it to be done out of pity or anything like that. I just want to know that I MATTER.
Alright I guess I'll get back to life now.
Jamaica was amazing. The land, the people, the culture. It was all awesome. The resort was beautiful! I didn't want to come home at all, I just wanted to stay there and live off the land and make crafts to sell to sappy tourists. lol The only bad thing about the trip was the mosquitos, which was mostly more a small inconvience than anything major.
We spent most of christmas flying back to phoenix, which was ok. Jodi was waiting for us at the airport which was really nice. Especially with how cuthroat it was.
I don't know why I'm typing on here. I'm at work and just wanted to get stuff off my chest. I'm starting to feel like I don't really matter to people. It makes me really sad because it's the people I care most about. I feel like I'm always the one initiating anything and that they don't feel like I'm worth the effort. I don't know. I just need to feel like I mean something to my friends. I don't make any sense. I want to feel important and missed when I don't see people for awhile. I want a phone call or a text message or geez, even a myspace comment every once it a while that says they thought about me. I don't want it to be done out of pity or anything like that. I just want to know that I MATTER.
Alright I guess I'll get back to life now.