CRAZY....
Last night I had the most disturbing and morbid dream...
I told Ryan that i wanted to take him out to for dinner at the ritz carlton for his b-day, but i was really throwing him a giant suprise party for his sweet 16. I told him to meet me at the hotel at 8..but he was late. When i called to see where he was he told me that he forgot and was at his house with all of his La Canada friends and that he wasen't coming. Embarassed that he forgot about me and the whole party was ruined i got really drunk. So drunk that i fell in the hotel pool and drowned. Everyone thought i killed myself cause ryan didn't come.
Ryan's response to my dream..
"well you would commit sucide if i did that!"
ahhh...not seeing him is giving me nightmares..
-i hate kiss me kate
-i hate FST
-i hate la canada
-i hate that i hate all of that.
i miss my baby....
well at least i get to see him tomorrow..on stage...doing kiss me kate......ahhh..shit!
on a happier note...my mom said she would buy ryan an i tickets to see Hairspray as a back to school present!
I told Ryan that i wanted to take him out to for dinner at the ritz carlton for his b-day, but i was really throwing him a giant suprise party for his sweet 16. I told him to meet me at the hotel at 8..but he was late. When i called to see where he was he told me that he forgot and was at his house with all of his La Canada friends and that he wasen't coming. Embarassed that he forgot about me and the whole party was ruined i got really drunk. So drunk that i fell in the hotel pool and drowned. Everyone thought i killed myself cause ryan didn't come.
Ryan's response to my dream..
"well you would commit sucide if i did that!"
ahhh...not seeing him is giving me nightmares..
-i hate kiss me kate
-i hate FST
-i hate la canada
-i hate that i hate all of that.
i miss my baby....
well at least i get to see him tomorrow..on stage...doing kiss me kate......ahhh..shit!
on a happier note...my mom said she would buy ryan an i tickets to see Hairspray as a back to school present!