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I'm really sad right now and I have no idea why. I have been for days. My period just ended so it's not that unless my body is dealing with the after effects. It's not the relationship because I do not feel the desire to sleep around and Paul really is wonderful to me. I have no idea what it is. I've just been feeling very unsocial, like more then usual. I just want to shut the bedroom door(which I can't because otherwise I roast, no central air) and be left the hell alone by all but Paul and Merlin. I do not want to even be slightly exposed to the other people in the house. I have no idea what it is. I need to hang out with someone next week. Get out of the house. I'll try calling Kennedy or Shoe maybe. Cory would probably be good. I have a little Naruto figure for him.
Update on the room by the way. I finally ended up snapping from stress and yelling at Paul for not helping me the other day. I had been constantly telling him that I need help and I had enough of dealing with it, so he had due-warning, even his brother saw it coming to that point and had tried to distract me the day before but apparently Paul just kinda missed it. He gets overwhelmed like I do, and just does not know how to deal with the stuff either but Fuck, I'd been doing it on my own for days. It took me yelling to get the point across. My yelling at him upset him, he takes it kinda hard and asked me to please not yell at him again. The only issue being that I don't think that the point was getting across until I finally broke and got upset. Seeing as I had told him repeatedly without yelling and it had accomplished nothing.
Update on the room by the way. I finally ended up snapping from stress and yelling at Paul for not helping me the other day. I had been constantly telling him that I need help and I had enough of dealing with it, so he had due-warning, even his brother saw it coming to that point and had tried to distract me the day before but apparently Paul just kinda missed it. He gets overwhelmed like I do, and just does not know how to deal with the stuff either but Fuck, I'd been doing it on my own for days. It took me yelling to get the point across. My yelling at him upset him, he takes it kinda hard and asked me to please not yell at him again. The only issue being that I don't think that the point was getting across until I finally broke and got upset. Seeing as I had told him repeatedly without yelling and it had accomplished nothing.