fuck linear equations!
for some reason ...i find myself watching the disney channel and i'm too lazy to change the channel. i don't even know how it got on this station. they have fake music videos...its too funny. the disney channel sure has come a long time since i used to watch when i was like 5-7. they have commercials which is stupid. they used to not have any....i mean they're only advertising their own shows but still.
the other day i was reminiscing about old tv shows like "You Can't Do That On Television" and "Seventeen". this one girl on "You Can't Do That On Television" was gross looking and reminded me of my mother with brunette hair. they should make a box set of that show. god i can't wait to go xmas shopping this year. too bad i will probably not have the kind of money i want to shop for other people. i absolutely love buying people shit when i have the money. i think its more fun than getting stuff for myself if i can think of what to get them. i like making people happy when i can.
i think i'm a compulsive shopper. there is like not one day that i don't go to some store and buy way too much impractical shit. i went to cvs today and was there to get shave cream because skintimate sucks and irritates my skin...so i was gonna get some aveeno...and i start picking up blue mascara like i needed that shit.
today i had to draw a perspective landscape in my drawing I class. i wasn't feeling it though...and my drawing sucked. my teacher kept coming over to basically tell me that but what he didn't realize that a bee was all up in my hair so i couldn't concentrate on what i was looking at because i was too preoccupied trying to fend off this bee. i could feel it buzzing around my ear and trying to crawl on my blazer. i was so annoyed and pissed.
my art teacher is so harsh with grading...he doesn't even play. i got a C+ on my portfolio but it was deserved...i didn't really make the proper effort to put my best work in there or retry the drawings i knew that sucked...when he told us to do that. i actually noticed myself to improve immediately after i turned the portfolio in...i guess i'm just getting over the nervousness of having to draw in a classroom setting....but he said that my lines were too rigid and formulaic...which is kinda true because i'm usually paranoid cos he's walking behind me looking at my shit. i'm already insecure cos i can't draw, i don't want someone milling around me who's thinking "wow, that looks like shit" he's a really nice guy however...he's a jolly guy that looks like santa clause without the red suit and hat.
i was watching the animal planet channel for the longest time today after i got home from school. i got sucked in watching this story about a lion who was seperated from her pack and ended up adopting a baby antelope like it was a cub because of seperation anxiety. it was so freaky...the baby antelope had lost its mother and kind of clung to this lion at the same time. both of them were starving because the lion was too stressed to hunt and the baby needed milk so it was starving as well from having no mother. it depressed the hell out of me because at the end a male lion ambushed them and took the baby antelope to eat and the lioness was all sad lookin on because she felt all upset like the antelope was her child. made me want to shoot myself and it was only animals.
i HATE when my father is downstairs watching tv and he's wearing nothing but a towel around his waist. it makes me feel dirty. he likes to ask me dumb shit about how i'm doing in school. i just tell him the truth that i'm suckin in math but giving it my all. okay maybe i wasn't in the past but i turned over a new leaf because i realized i can't rely on bruno to teach me everything...i have to make an effort of some sort and practice what i learned so i can do it on my own. i have a test thursday so i'm going to study so hard tomorrow all day.
i think i'm going to go to sleep and sort out my thoughts about life in general. :)
the other day i was reminiscing about old tv shows like "You Can't Do That On Television" and "Seventeen". this one girl on "You Can't Do That On Television" was gross looking and reminded me of my mother with brunette hair. they should make a box set of that show. god i can't wait to go xmas shopping this year. too bad i will probably not have the kind of money i want to shop for other people. i absolutely love buying people shit when i have the money. i think its more fun than getting stuff for myself if i can think of what to get them. i like making people happy when i can.
i think i'm a compulsive shopper. there is like not one day that i don't go to some store and buy way too much impractical shit. i went to cvs today and was there to get shave cream because skintimate sucks and irritates my skin...so i was gonna get some aveeno...and i start picking up blue mascara like i needed that shit.
today i had to draw a perspective landscape in my drawing I class. i wasn't feeling it though...and my drawing sucked. my teacher kept coming over to basically tell me that but what he didn't realize that a bee was all up in my hair so i couldn't concentrate on what i was looking at because i was too preoccupied trying to fend off this bee. i could feel it buzzing around my ear and trying to crawl on my blazer. i was so annoyed and pissed.
my art teacher is so harsh with grading...he doesn't even play. i got a C+ on my portfolio but it was deserved...i didn't really make the proper effort to put my best work in there or retry the drawings i knew that sucked...when he told us to do that. i actually noticed myself to improve immediately after i turned the portfolio in...i guess i'm just getting over the nervousness of having to draw in a classroom setting....but he said that my lines were too rigid and formulaic...which is kinda true because i'm usually paranoid cos he's walking behind me looking at my shit. i'm already insecure cos i can't draw, i don't want someone milling around me who's thinking "wow, that looks like shit" he's a really nice guy however...he's a jolly guy that looks like santa clause without the red suit and hat.
i was watching the animal planet channel for the longest time today after i got home from school. i got sucked in watching this story about a lion who was seperated from her pack and ended up adopting a baby antelope like it was a cub because of seperation anxiety. it was so freaky...the baby antelope had lost its mother and kind of clung to this lion at the same time. both of them were starving because the lion was too stressed to hunt and the baby needed milk so it was starving as well from having no mother. it depressed the hell out of me because at the end a male lion ambushed them and took the baby antelope to eat and the lioness was all sad lookin on because she felt all upset like the antelope was her child. made me want to shoot myself and it was only animals.
i HATE when my father is downstairs watching tv and he's wearing nothing but a towel around his waist. it makes me feel dirty. he likes to ask me dumb shit about how i'm doing in school. i just tell him the truth that i'm suckin in math but giving it my all. okay maybe i wasn't in the past but i turned over a new leaf because i realized i can't rely on bruno to teach me everything...i have to make an effort of some sort and practice what i learned so i can do it on my own. i have a test thursday so i'm going to study so hard tomorrow all day.
i think i'm going to go to sleep and sort out my thoughts about life in general. :)