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I have very few people I consider "close" in this world. People who actually know me. People who know I'm just a whiney little spoiled brat. I'm not calm, I'm not cool, and I'm not collected.
I feel alone. I have trouble reaching out to my family, probably because I'm not leading the life they built up for me. I'm not in school. I have very little intention of going back to CSUN.
I would like to have friends. Friends who are ready to branch out from home and move out. Friends that I can make into roommates. This is a totally selfish plea though. All my buddies are happy at home. Comfortable, finishing school, without a single worry except for taking out the trash or doing the dishes.They can actually save money. They can spend money on themselves. I wish I could have that back.
My sister is the only family member that knows I'm not in school right now. I used the dilema with my current roommate as an excuse. But I cant move in with her. She has a family now.
There is nothing for me here. All I have is skateland and that makes me sad. I had such a bright future ahead of me. I made slefish decisions, and I put myself in this situation for what I thought was love. It was my mistake.
My best chance of getting it together again is to leave. Start over somewhere else.I have no car and no money. The armed forces seem very appealing........
Ive considered asking my brother to move in with him. its about an hour's drive from san luis obispo. The college i wish i would've gone to. I would have to start over. from scratch.I would have to freeload for a while til I get a job. Then go to Cal poly and find out how to transfer my classes. I'm totally clueless regarding that whole thing. If I get accepted I could finish my last year and a half there.
an hour's drive..... I'd need a car. Or I can dorm it. If I dont get financial aid, i'll just take out loans. I'm already in debt anyways.
That's my best plan so far. Just to ditch everybody. Like I said, there's very few people I consider "close". Now my best course of action is to abandon them.
I'll run away from my problems, and any possible solutions to them.......
I feel alone. I have trouble reaching out to my family, probably because I'm not leading the life they built up for me. I'm not in school. I have very little intention of going back to CSUN.
I would like to have friends. Friends who are ready to branch out from home and move out. Friends that I can make into roommates. This is a totally selfish plea though. All my buddies are happy at home. Comfortable, finishing school, without a single worry except for taking out the trash or doing the dishes.They can actually save money. They can spend money on themselves. I wish I could have that back.
My sister is the only family member that knows I'm not in school right now. I used the dilema with my current roommate as an excuse. But I cant move in with her. She has a family now.
There is nothing for me here. All I have is skateland and that makes me sad. I had such a bright future ahead of me. I made slefish decisions, and I put myself in this situation for what I thought was love. It was my mistake.
My best chance of getting it together again is to leave. Start over somewhere else.I have no car and no money. The armed forces seem very appealing........
Ive considered asking my brother to move in with him. its about an hour's drive from san luis obispo. The college i wish i would've gone to. I would have to start over. from scratch.I would have to freeload for a while til I get a job. Then go to Cal poly and find out how to transfer my classes. I'm totally clueless regarding that whole thing. If I get accepted I could finish my last year and a half there.
an hour's drive..... I'd need a car. Or I can dorm it. If I dont get financial aid, i'll just take out loans. I'm already in debt anyways.
That's my best plan so far. Just to ditch everybody. Like I said, there's very few people I consider "close". Now my best course of action is to abandon them.
I'll run away from my problems, and any possible solutions to them.......