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So I wouldn't say that I hate my younger brother. Just really really dislike him. Various reasons of course.
But. I think that to move on and really begin living life, I have to learn to forgive him. I may never love him, but I don't have to despise him either.
Through all of the pain I have endured I find that I cannot completely hate what I've been through because it has helped shape me. For good and bad, it has made me who I am.
I've found that I have been projecting his image on other people and that's unfair. I immediately become defensive and as though I want to argue. I don't like arguing. And I feel badly for what I've done.
I feel that unless I forgive him, I'll end up hoarding deep resentment and discontent for the rest of my life... and I don't want that to happen.
As my first step, I've accepted him as a friend on facebook.
Time to see what happens I suppose.
Life lesson, neh?
But. I think that to move on and really begin living life, I have to learn to forgive him. I may never love him, but I don't have to despise him either.
Through all of the pain I have endured I find that I cannot completely hate what I've been through because it has helped shape me. For good and bad, it has made me who I am.
I've found that I have been projecting his image on other people and that's unfair. I immediately become defensive and as though I want to argue. I don't like arguing. And I feel badly for what I've done.
I feel that unless I forgive him, I'll end up hoarding deep resentment and discontent for the rest of my life... and I don't want that to happen.
As my first step, I've accepted him as a friend on facebook.
Time to see what happens I suppose.
Life lesson, neh?