Wedding stress

[nalok666]

I swear to god I'm going to fucking kill him! We are suppose to be going to see the cake designer tonight and the mother fucker decides to take a day trip to Brentwood. Well his ride got wasted so he's not going to be back tonight. Honestly I'm getting paranoid. The whole thing is getting way bigger than I wanted it to be. What happened to my small little wedding...just family. All of a sudden our list of 25 people has grown to 40...mainly his friends. And I don't see us affording that many people to come! Isn't that the reason we agreed to a big reception? Hello? Am I talking to myself here? I hate wedding planning. Oh and to top it all off...the person altering my dress fucked up, so now I have to go back to NY and get fitted again (they're paying for everything of course). I'm going to have to figure out the cake on my own. Figure out how to tell him he has to uninvite some people. I swear I'm so close to postponing it until he grows up a bit. LOL, if I postpone it I'll put off getting married for a year or so...by then you all can come cause I'll finally have stable enough finances to support a 100 person wedding. I'm so not looking forward to the red-eye flight to NY next week....I have to do while changing jobs...by the way I got a new job. I'm working at the mall again, as well as staying on top of all my horse lessons. The only time I have open is next weekend. So friday night flying out, coming home sunday night. I'm going to be so fucking tired. I can either kill my fiance, or marry him...hmmm very odd dillema. "So I married an axemurderer" LOL.
Well if I end up postponing it, yall invited. But arg...I just wanted my little 25 max wedding.....must kill idiot...but must marry idiot. Oh Alyssa-because you bought me my first pair of sexyness in high school (think xmas like sophomore year or something), must help me find something for honeymoon. LOL. Aight peoples I'm going to take an advil, check kron4 for traffic, and head out to walnut creek to meet the cake people. 10-4