cant live with them would die without them
I think about my daughter i wonder if i should give her up, i cant deal with her, i feel like my life is ruined, im trying to go to school and work and pay my bills and its just fucking impossible. Yeah, so im supposebly dating edison now, am i happy now? sometimes, im not even sure. I dont trust him at all. Its sad to say that but its true, eventually he will do to me what he did to his last girlfriend and i would be stupid to think otherwise. but am i happy, the majority of the time yes, i mean who wouldnt want to be in love with their best friend? but he is so inconsiderate. still waiting for a xmas present or a birthday card, i mean wtf? i dont know what to do anymore. im going to call child support when i get the chance and get my daughters miserable father on child support payments. its not fair for me to be working my ass off while he fucks around. i just want want you see in movies, you know? that fairytale romance or that picture perfect image of what a family should be. i dont know anymore, its never going to be that way, ill just sit here, and dream.