Small note.
(( Haha, I feel a little pissed off at some "friends" here in LJ. Most of them are great, yeah, hence the reason why I still keep this LJ; plus the reason that I had this for years. But hell.
If I am just going to be left behind like that, then fine. Don't even bother seeing me because I know there are others more important to see. I'm just another friend who they can leave behind anytime they want. I'm not a friend because I am a person they can talk to when they don't have those special people with them. And I don't want to be treated like an ignored/forgotten pet dog that would always come crawling to the ones I love, but never really gets loved back.
Aa, but then again, some people don't even bother seeing me anymore, anyway. I don't even remember when I last talked to them. But like I said, I don't want to be hurt anymore. They had their chance, but now it ends. Do you honestly have an idea on how that feels? Do you even know? I had been too selfless, I can't even bring myself to talk about it to them. All I do is emo, emo, emo. I had hoped they would heal me themselves because they are my friends. I tried to come, but they wouldn't come. It's not fair.
Vox is so making me feel better, I even update there more often than here now. At least I am with my REAL friends there; both online and offline. People who are not in Vox are likely to be people who hurt me even though I don't say it. Again I say, I tried to come, but they wouldn't come. Nothing at all happens.
I'll just place RP entries here now and comment on my remaining good friends' entries. Fake smile, but still-strong passion of Rionell, my inner persona. Here I say it, as much as I want to keep my Vox public like this one, I don't want to be with some people. But know this, I would never speak ill of anyone behind their backs, I never hated anyone as well. In fact, this is why I suffer too much. I don't hate anyone, though I know that I MUST hate them. But I just can't bring myself to hate others. I get angry sometimes, but my kind of anger only lasts a few days, otherwise I would just cry somewhere because I never wanted to be angry. Just a simple wish of good, healthy friendship... I cannot even have with some, so I'll leave them-- and I'll be with real ones in a different place. ))
If I am just going to be left behind like that, then fine. Don't even bother seeing me because I know there are others more important to see. I'm just another friend who they can leave behind anytime they want. I'm not a friend because I am a person they can talk to when they don't have those special people with them. And I don't want to be treated like an ignored/forgotten pet dog that would always come crawling to the ones I love, but never really gets loved back.
Aa, but then again, some people don't even bother seeing me anymore, anyway. I don't even remember when I last talked to them. But like I said, I don't want to be hurt anymore. They had their chance, but now it ends. Do you honestly have an idea on how that feels? Do you even know? I had been too selfless, I can't even bring myself to talk about it to them. All I do is emo, emo, emo. I had hoped they would heal me themselves because they are my friends. I tried to come, but they wouldn't come. It's not fair.
Vox is so making me feel better, I even update there more often than here now. At least I am with my REAL friends there; both online and offline. People who are not in Vox are likely to be people who hurt me even though I don't say it. Again I say, I tried to come, but they wouldn't come. Nothing at all happens.
I'll just place RP entries here now and comment on my remaining good friends' entries. Fake smile, but still-strong passion of Rionell, my inner persona. Here I say it, as much as I want to keep my Vox public like this one, I don't want to be with some people. But know this, I would never speak ill of anyone behind their backs, I never hated anyone as well. In fact, this is why I suffer too much. I don't hate anyone, though I know that I MUST hate them. But I just can't bring myself to hate others. I get angry sometimes, but my kind of anger only lasts a few days, otherwise I would just cry somewhere because I never wanted to be angry. Just a simple wish of good, healthy friendship... I cannot even have with some, so I'll leave them-- and I'll be with real ones in a different place. ))