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I think my live journal is just an excuse to bitch and moan about my problems and how depressed I feel all the time. It is, but it's my live journal. If my insecurity pisses you off, then fuck off. You don't have to read it fyi. If you think that I'm just making my own problems and not trying to change them, you don't know shit about me. If you think I'm a whinny little shit with nothing to do but post angsty little updates, you're only slightly on the right track. Everyone as problems; and if you don't, where the hell are you from?
Yes. Um. That's the intro to this post. Fuck you.
So, on to the angsty pissing and moaning, eh?
So, um, recently I've come to terms with the fact that I melt into the backround. When in a crowd, I'm the one you see people watching. When hanging out with friends, I'm the one you see just listening. I could get on the table and do the electric slide in a pair of booty shorts and dominatrix boots, and people still wouldn't really pay attention to me. I can try and participate in the conversations or try and get involved in the group, but I can't seem to. I'm trying so hard to change and become what I talked about in an earlier post, but nothing I do seems to be right. (See you bastards? I am trying to change. So fuck you.)
I don't know shit about your favorite band, I can't talk about video games, I don't get high, I'm not a milano, I don't do the girly-girly bonding crap, and I'm not that interesting. This pretty much means I need to get the hell out of wayne. But oh wait, that's the only place my friends are willing to hang out.
I've been hanging out in wayne for over a year now, and most people still don't know who I am. Nor do they really want to. I don't give of "cool" vibes and I'm not charismatic. Hanging out in wayne is making me feel like shit, but I don't know what to do about it. Do you? I'm the quiet friend, the less pretty of the two, the awkward friend, or the boring friend; this means I'm screwed. When I try and talk to people, they quickly end the conversation and move on. Or if I do end up hanging out with someone, they won't remember me by tomorrow.
Do you know how to help me with this problem? If you don't, stop acting like I'm just a spineless bitch who just whines.
see you space cowboy.
Yes. Um. That's the intro to this post. Fuck you.
So, on to the angsty pissing and moaning, eh?
So, um, recently I've come to terms with the fact that I melt into the backround. When in a crowd, I'm the one you see people watching. When hanging out with friends, I'm the one you see just listening. I could get on the table and do the electric slide in a pair of booty shorts and dominatrix boots, and people still wouldn't really pay attention to me. I can try and participate in the conversations or try and get involved in the group, but I can't seem to. I'm trying so hard to change and become what I talked about in an earlier post, but nothing I do seems to be right. (See you bastards? I am trying to change. So fuck you.)
I don't know shit about your favorite band, I can't talk about video games, I don't get high, I'm not a milano, I don't do the girly-girly bonding crap, and I'm not that interesting. This pretty much means I need to get the hell out of wayne. But oh wait, that's the only place my friends are willing to hang out.
I've been hanging out in wayne for over a year now, and most people still don't know who I am. Nor do they really want to. I don't give of "cool" vibes and I'm not charismatic. Hanging out in wayne is making me feel like shit, but I don't know what to do about it. Do you? I'm the quiet friend, the less pretty of the two, the awkward friend, or the boring friend; this means I'm screwed. When I try and talk to people, they quickly end the conversation and move on. Or if I do end up hanging out with someone, they won't remember me by tomorrow.
Do you know how to help me with this problem? If you don't, stop acting like I'm just a spineless bitch who just whines.
see you space cowboy.