thoughts
i just can't believe shes gone from this plane. we were suppose to get married and have a few years together but we didn't. part of the reason why i am not as torn up and upset as i could be was that 2 years ago when she almost died twice i kinda pregrieved our relationship ending as well as her life so im at a very odd far along spot on this that some folks do not understand and it makes it kinda hard with them but not really. pray that i can get this through to them so that i can live and grieve my way and get done what i need to get done.