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Mar 19, 2010 22:45

I'm blaming bad television for killing my brain.

Right now I feel like if things didn't start sucking I'd be okay.

Everything would.

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curseangel March 20 2010, 04:18:32 UTC
Brain's still alive.

Bad TV sucks, but our ideas are better, so.

It'll be okay.

Right?

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nakitamanomiko March 20 2010, 04:26:16 UTC
It was still our ideas, just their people. I don't know. We went from one to another when it went bad, and then to another, and to another, and another but when that went bad we didn't coast on it nearly as long and nothing followed it up, and everything's just fracturing and we're lucky if we can hold onto something for a day or two.

When we had something solid we had issues maybe once a week.

Now...

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curseangel March 20 2010, 04:32:39 UTC
Yeah... I know... I just don't know what to do. The good shows went bad and there aren't any more and the anime fandoms didn't last long enough and...

I wish I knew the answer.

I want to know the answer and I want to not feel so miserable over my flaky fucking brain all the time and like I'm going to cry because I'm a fricking failure at keeping my head on anything right now.

I don't know.

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nakitamanomiko March 20 2010, 04:36:10 UTC
It's not your fault. It's not, it's not, it's not.

Can we just repeat the last year or something? Maybe two?

I think Saiyuki owes us a couple more months.

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curseangel March 20 2010, 04:39:19 UTC
Feels like it. 'M the one who keeps coming up with new shit, not settling for crap, can't keep my head on anything for five seconds at a damn time.

Don't wanna repeat the last two years. I'd end up back in Vermont, far away. Don't wanna.

So does WA...

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nakitamanomiko March 20 2010, 04:41:07 UTC
At least you can get it on things. My head just keeps trying to go back to things.

Then can heads just?

So do a lot of other things.. The WA's my stupid brain's fault though.

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curseangel March 20 2010, 04:45:05 UTC
Mmn.. that's not necessarily a bad thing, though...

Be nice.. but we'd lose a lot, and...

Yeah... No..

I just want to be able to play with things and... we get such amazing ideas and I just want to be able to play with them..

I like the original stuff because I don't have to follow someone else's character, but it's hard, too... I just...

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nakitamanomiko March 20 2010, 04:50:19 UTC
Sure it is... if it's got no damn point.

But it'd be okay for a while longer...

I'm the one who's got, apparently, Tokito impotence.

I know, same... But we just keep making more and we haven't played with next to any of them and...

That's good, but..I guess my problem is with those I get more attached than is anywhere near healthy. Yeah....

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curseangel March 20 2010, 04:55:42 UTC
Nn...

I guess... I don't know... maybe we have to do this, period of time where we don't know what we're doing, to get to something better...

It happens...

I know... next time I come up with an idea, just... stop me, okay? Tell me "no". We have our charas to play with for now, so... we should try playing with them, right? The Shinigami and the Soldiers and these new boys, we can play with, and maybe some of the others if we feel like it but... we can focus on them and it'd be okay, right? And just play with them and actually play with them, and...

I do, too, but then it's hard because when the show goes bad I get depressed and it upsets me to really think about them/it... because I can't get the bad out of my head...

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nakitamanomiko March 20 2010, 04:59:11 UTC
Can I curl up under my bed till it's over then?

No. It doesn't, not with me.

But then they just stick in your head anyway, don't they? I just... okay, right... *nod* We have a few good ones with chars to choose from ,and...

I know, which is why it doesn't help things when my head goes back to them because I'm a masochist with anthropomorphication issues.

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curseangel March 20 2010, 05:06:39 UTC
No, I'd miss you.

Mm..

No, they'll go away sooner or later.. and if they don't, I can make a site or something... write them down for later when we're settled and open for new plots. Would that be okay? Yes... we do, we have some awesome charas to play with, and great plots, and things that need plotting, and... that would be okay...

Nn.. I'm sorry...

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nakitamanomiko March 20 2010, 05:11:21 UTC
Me too, but..

I guess that works.. I have that wiki. We can shove anything either of us comes up in there. Need to fill out the rest of it, too... Right, yes. *nod* Yeah...

You're more sensible about it, I think. I care more about the characters than the shows I guess.

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curseangel March 20 2010, 05:15:24 UTC
Nn...

Yeah... right, we can work on that, and.. we can make it work. Right?

Mmn... I care more about the characters, but when the canon ruins them I can't help but take it personally. It hurts and I try to avoid the hurt by avoiding the show/charas...

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nakitamanomiko March 20 2010, 05:19:02 UTC
Right. *nod*

I do too. I can't think about'em without getting near to, or to tears, but that's where the masochism and mental defects come in and I don't care and I still want to save them, or remember when it wasawesome, and.. it ends up feeling like I've been told I can't play with Johnny anymore because he did something bad that he didn't have any choice in the matter of. Y'know?

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curseangel March 20 2010, 05:28:58 UTC
Okay.

Yeah... I get what you mean... I'm sorry...

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