life, death, and what matters
So I havent posted here in a while, guess Ive been either too busy or just dont know if anyone reads it anymore. But consider this a bit of a rant...not gonna be emo just I need to write this.
We made the decision as a group family , with little financial choice, to move out here to Elko NV. Its beautiful..I love it soo much. The horses, the country , the peace and quiet is such a wonderful change my stress level has dropped. There is just one hitch and I knew it was coming..we all did..
My mom is dying.
She is almost 90 now and has been in nursing care for some time for her Alzheimer. She has been in and out of the hospital, again and again for awhile now, with trouble breathing and heart murr murrs. Well this past week, she was in again, they put her on antibiotics and on oxygen, but it didnt help. On wednesday they transferred her to icu unit and intubated(sp?) her. The dr went in with a scope and tried to clear things up and her lung reinflated so it seemed she was gettng better.But then during the nite it happenend again,the dr told me and my sister that it was pointless to try again but that she could be kept on a respirator and kept alive. If you call that living. She is competent and made the decision to sign a dnr order, so now she is in a hospice unit just with meds for pain.
Im flying back tomorrow to stay as long as she lasts. that hurts me to say more than anything in my life.
So, my friends, all I can say is this..value your family. Cherish love. It doesnt matter if you think your parents are overbearing monsters, if they ruin your"life", they are your parents. One day they will be gone..and you will realize as I do , that they always meant the best for you. Love..esp parental love is truly unconditional.
We made the decision as a group family , with little financial choice, to move out here to Elko NV. Its beautiful..I love it soo much. The horses, the country , the peace and quiet is such a wonderful change my stress level has dropped. There is just one hitch and I knew it was coming..we all did..
My mom is dying.
She is almost 90 now and has been in nursing care for some time for her Alzheimer. She has been in and out of the hospital, again and again for awhile now, with trouble breathing and heart murr murrs. Well this past week, she was in again, they put her on antibiotics and on oxygen, but it didnt help. On wednesday they transferred her to icu unit and intubated(sp?) her. The dr went in with a scope and tried to clear things up and her lung reinflated so it seemed she was gettng better.But then during the nite it happenend again,the dr told me and my sister that it was pointless to try again but that she could be kept on a respirator and kept alive. If you call that living. She is competent and made the decision to sign a dnr order, so now she is in a hospice unit just with meds for pain.
Im flying back tomorrow to stay as long as she lasts. that hurts me to say more than anything in my life.
So, my friends, all I can say is this..value your family. Cherish love. It doesnt matter if you think your parents are overbearing monsters, if they ruin your"life", they are your parents. One day they will be gone..and you will realize as I do , that they always meant the best for you. Love..esp parental love is truly unconditional.