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Everything sucks right now and I am so walking on the edge.
Burst out crying in Bed Bath and Beyond today because Rob was being his normal asshole-ish rude self and I took it to heart. He came up here to see grandpa before he goes but he hasn't had to deal with all the emotional upheaval in the house up until this point and he won't have to after he and steph go back.
I'm so tired.
I'm definately in the winter depression mode. I know part of this is grandpa dying. but its more. I just feel lost. things suck and I don't know how to make them better. I need...hell if I know.
I'm going to sleep. I have to work tomorrow. and I'm holding a fucking grudge against my brother because I don't deserve to be treated the way he does. Not with all the things I've done for him and his goddamn wedding. Not with all the shit I put up with from the parents because of his inability to communicate or make a decision for them.
heh. bitter much huh?
I'm so done.
Burst out crying in Bed Bath and Beyond today because Rob was being his normal asshole-ish rude self and I took it to heart. He came up here to see grandpa before he goes but he hasn't had to deal with all the emotional upheaval in the house up until this point and he won't have to after he and steph go back.
I'm so tired.
I'm definately in the winter depression mode. I know part of this is grandpa dying. but its more. I just feel lost. things suck and I don't know how to make them better. I need...hell if I know.
I'm going to sleep. I have to work tomorrow. and I'm holding a fucking grudge against my brother because I don't deserve to be treated the way he does. Not with all the things I've done for him and his goddamn wedding. Not with all the shit I put up with from the parents because of his inability to communicate or make a decision for them.
heh. bitter much huh?
I'm so done.