Warning: Unplesant
DISCALIMER:: (If you don't want to hear about whether or not I have been having sex, do not read.)
I think i am ready to let go of what i had with Taylor.
Truth is I don't think we do actually have a future togther at all.
Especailly not further down the line...
I would have to be a fucking idiot to have children with that guy.
No. I think today, I know, deep down, he's not coming back, and I really don't want him to.
I don't think i could be friends with him at this time, cause if we ran into each other at a party one of us owuld be hurt by the other one's flirting.
For now I think i will just work on letting him go. I have been looking at guy the past couple of nights and actually thinking i would like to let a few of them in, you know? not just sleep with them to keep them distant emotionally. But actually hold off and try to start a relationship. I think I am going to do that now. I want a boyfriend. I haven't slept with anyone in a couple of weeks. I had a couple of guys I would see at least once a week, just to drink and have sex, because deep down, that's all i wanted, a phyiscal connection. But i feel myself getting ready for something emotional. I want something. I want someone again. I haven't felt that since Taylor left. I geuss that just meant he hadn't fully left. But he's gone now. Good bye.
I think i am ready to let go of what i had with Taylor.
Truth is I don't think we do actually have a future togther at all.
Especailly not further down the line...
I would have to be a fucking idiot to have children with that guy.
No. I think today, I know, deep down, he's not coming back, and I really don't want him to.
I don't think i could be friends with him at this time, cause if we ran into each other at a party one of us owuld be hurt by the other one's flirting.
For now I think i will just work on letting him go. I have been looking at guy the past couple of nights and actually thinking i would like to let a few of them in, you know? not just sleep with them to keep them distant emotionally. But actually hold off and try to start a relationship. I think I am going to do that now. I want a boyfriend. I haven't slept with anyone in a couple of weeks. I had a couple of guys I would see at least once a week, just to drink and have sex, because deep down, that's all i wanted, a phyiscal connection. But i feel myself getting ready for something emotional. I want something. I want someone again. I haven't felt that since Taylor left. I geuss that just meant he hadn't fully left. But he's gone now. Good bye.