Pawtucket Patriot Ale; drink it and women will have sex in your back yard.
Vacation was a bitch. My mom spent the whole time trying to tell me how to spend my time since my time was limited. unluckily enough, our versions of the dream vacation differ greatly. I wanted to spend my time swimming, sleeping, playing video games and then running around at all hours of the night acting like a crazy juvenile delinquent with my brother "freeing" tents into the storm, finding magic holes, and rewriting other people's beach graffiti until we could no longer make our legs work (about 3 am). her idea, on the other hand, had a lot more to do with appeazing the relatives, (who will never ever all be appeazed at once,) by organizing huge outings (which they all bitch about constantly), laying out in the sun (well past the point of burning), playing card games (by ourselves at the same table), and doing a whole lot of cleaning up after the family all 16 people) so that no one could bitch that we never do our share of work.
So needless to say my mom was generally upset with me the entire trip. BUT WHATEVER. I enjoyed my version of vacation.
I've been talking to Taylor Gaar. which I'm really excited about.
When I think about Taylor I get the exact opposite feeling than when i thought about Jonathan. When I was with jonathan, I was attracted to him, but i knew i was just having fun, and by no means did i want him to be a part of my future. But when I started talking about taylor I felt more like I could be finding a future. that if something happened with him I could end up seeing the world. Being happy. And not the way I was happy with kenyon. Cause I know I wasn't actually happy. No matter how happy you feel, it's not happiness if it's stagnation. For some reason Taylor seems like the opposite. He's at school in New Zealand. I still haven't seen him since he graduated, in 2001. I have always kept in touch. Kinda. about 2 years ago he sent me a pic of him and his friends on halloween. and now all of a sudden we're talking about every other day. just sending emails. so i still have yet to actually see him. But now all of a sudden I want to tour the world. I want to do things. And it would be really awesome to do them with him.
He is coming back next month for a couple days. then going to work at a camp with children with learning disorders. then he'll be back for about 2 weeks. then back to new zealand.
So needless to say my mom was generally upset with me the entire trip. BUT WHATEVER. I enjoyed my version of vacation.
I've been talking to Taylor Gaar. which I'm really excited about.
When I think about Taylor I get the exact opposite feeling than when i thought about Jonathan. When I was with jonathan, I was attracted to him, but i knew i was just having fun, and by no means did i want him to be a part of my future. But when I started talking about taylor I felt more like I could be finding a future. that if something happened with him I could end up seeing the world. Being happy. And not the way I was happy with kenyon. Cause I know I wasn't actually happy. No matter how happy you feel, it's not happiness if it's stagnation. For some reason Taylor seems like the opposite. He's at school in New Zealand. I still haven't seen him since he graduated, in 2001. I have always kept in touch. Kinda. about 2 years ago he sent me a pic of him and his friends on halloween. and now all of a sudden we're talking about every other day. just sending emails. so i still have yet to actually see him. But now all of a sudden I want to tour the world. I want to do things. And it would be really awesome to do them with him.
He is coming back next month for a couple days. then going to work at a camp with children with learning disorders. then he'll be back for about 2 weeks. then back to new zealand.