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The best way to really understand your state of mind is to lay in the bath and focus on the ache of your unraveling spine.
Pressure, while an organizing factor in my life for the most part, takes a frightening toll on my muscles. Watching steam trickle off your finger tips in a one-candle light pond is the most satisfying way I have found to really dissect my current life situations. I did, however, realize how unsatisfying it is to have this pressure put on you by the people you have chosen to surround yourself with. I should really just flee to a foreign country... but I'm sure, eventually, the same problems would creep up there. It is possible that it would take another 20 years to conjure these things up, and if this is the case, I am willing to take the risk.
Pressure, while an organizing factor in my life for the most part, takes a frightening toll on my muscles. Watching steam trickle off your finger tips in a one-candle light pond is the most satisfying way I have found to really dissect my current life situations. I did, however, realize how unsatisfying it is to have this pressure put on you by the people you have chosen to surround yourself with. I should really just flee to a foreign country... but I'm sure, eventually, the same problems would creep up there. It is possible that it would take another 20 years to conjure these things up, and if this is the case, I am willing to take the risk.