Up, down, turn around! Please don't let me hit the ground!
Wow. You know, journal. I'm kinda sorry that I've been so neglectful of you, you know? It's just that well..I kinda sometimes don't always see the point. of. I don't know. Things in general. A lot of things. I don't think that I make a whole lot of sense. You'd have to ask someone who knows me.
Ugh. My chest hurts. and my stomach is really in a bad way lately. Logan says she got this wicked stomach flu that bloats you for weeks. and Jason has had one for months. My dad is frying something really really really meaty and gross. I feel so allergic. and guilty because I told Allie I would walk down town and visit her at work. and I feel not well enough to do so.
We have a show next week and I'm kinda not looking forward to it because lately my head hurts really badly when I yell and jump around. And Tuesday I have an interview for a new uni.. I really want to go.. but I don't know where I'll get the money if they let me in. So it's like... Class. Class. Work. Interview. Tech. Rehearsal.... No wonder people think I'm masochistic.
Lately I feel really bad about Alex. I know I have no reason to because Alex is happy....well...maybe Alex is happy but maybe I still do..
I'm so thrilled to be graduating in two weeks. ha to everyone who thought I'd never go to college, let alone graduate college. whee. I'm really going to miss everyone if I go away to uni. I dunno who will miss me. I don't think people generally do a lot of missing K. More than usual I think people are glad to be rid of me.
I also feel bad about Scott. But it also distresses me because I wish he didn't want to shoot somebody that I care about. Sometimes it's hard to be patient and understanding.
Sometimes I really think that I am more trouble than I'm worth.
I don't know why I update you. or don't update you. I don't think anybody reads you, so should it either way really matter? I dunno.
What's my solution for everything? I dunno. Drink water..
Just lately I'm so so tired..
Ugh. My chest hurts. and my stomach is really in a bad way lately. Logan says she got this wicked stomach flu that bloats you for weeks. and Jason has had one for months. My dad is frying something really really really meaty and gross. I feel so allergic. and guilty because I told Allie I would walk down town and visit her at work. and I feel not well enough to do so.
We have a show next week and I'm kinda not looking forward to it because lately my head hurts really badly when I yell and jump around. And Tuesday I have an interview for a new uni.. I really want to go.. but I don't know where I'll get the money if they let me in. So it's like... Class. Class. Work. Interview. Tech. Rehearsal.... No wonder people think I'm masochistic.
Lately I feel really bad about Alex. I know I have no reason to because Alex is happy....well...maybe Alex is happy but maybe I still do..
I'm so thrilled to be graduating in two weeks. ha to everyone who thought I'd never go to college, let alone graduate college. whee. I'm really going to miss everyone if I go away to uni. I dunno who will miss me. I don't think people generally do a lot of missing K. More than usual I think people are glad to be rid of me.
I also feel bad about Scott. But it also distresses me because I wish he didn't want to shoot somebody that I care about. Sometimes it's hard to be patient and understanding.
Sometimes I really think that I am more trouble than I'm worth.
I don't know why I update you. or don't update you. I don't think anybody reads you, so should it either way really matter? I dunno.
What's my solution for everything? I dunno. Drink water..
Just lately I'm so so tired..