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So i still havent heard from matt since monday..he should be back and im worried. im getting a new job soon...probably as a bell boy at the hilton..... WELL ITS BETTER THAN NUTHIN!!!! i started hanging out with this girl named elayne...she works at the airort. she alot of fun and really pretty ..but no real spark, or so it seems.
i spent a good long while awake in beed last night and ive decided that living the fastrack life is all it seems. for the last two days ive rubbed shoulders with the big wigs . been taken in by the high rollers and enjoyed the most shallow existaence ever.i like living like that. but then i go and get in my old car and go home to my trailer, change out of my slacks and leather jacket into an old t shirt and dirty jeans and i realize im not the person i pretend to be at work. now i ask cant i just live two lives. and if so for how long. i feel so pwerful at work. i no what people like to hear and i give it to them...now im not just talkin cusomers iether. i know how to spark interest in the ones that matter...like owner of hilton himself....the ceo of holand america...and of course the rich motherfuckers who want me to help them out with sumthin.
when im at work i also feel very fake..but i feel like i have a skill that i could really use. im in a quandery
i spent a good long while awake in beed last night and ive decided that living the fastrack life is all it seems. for the last two days ive rubbed shoulders with the big wigs . been taken in by the high rollers and enjoyed the most shallow existaence ever.i like living like that. but then i go and get in my old car and go home to my trailer, change out of my slacks and leather jacket into an old t shirt and dirty jeans and i realize im not the person i pretend to be at work. now i ask cant i just live two lives. and if so for how long. i feel so pwerful at work. i no what people like to hear and i give it to them...now im not just talkin cusomers iether. i know how to spark interest in the ones that matter...like owner of hilton himself....the ceo of holand america...and of course the rich motherfuckers who want me to help them out with sumthin.
when im at work i also feel very fake..but i feel like i have a skill that i could really use. im in a quandery