dirty country mouse

[naked_iggy]

as with tradition new years sucked
we had people over here which was drunken and chaotic as usual
but i missed most of it
i went to aurora's for what turned out to be a few hours instead of one
i've developed this new sort of social phobia when dealing with people alone that i dont know
it's really fucking irritating
i barely talked to anyone the whole night
if brian wasnt there i dont know what i would have done
got to meet damon
good guy
we got along which made me happy
they are awesone for being so thorough with me and not looking down on me for being so lost and ignorant about the city

i had to sneak back into the window when i got back
everyone was being drunk somewhere in manhatten stealing a christmas tree a bringing it home with them on the subway
im so pissed i stayed sober for no reason
i didnt want to risk fucking up somehow on the subway
ive ridden it a few times by myself
FUCK YOU
i'm very proud of myself i've never done it
im a retard when it comes to living in the city
but i'm getting more used to it and i like it
im cutting off my dreds so that i can get a job and start acting again
im psyhched and scared im going to look like a big fat bulldyke

i hung out with anna today and shared a sandwich and our thoughts about drugs, public nudity,and changing
we realized it's been harder for other people to deal with it then it has been personally
and most importantly we realized "fuck it"

i like leda
she is purdy
i have fun with her