i need to go rock climbing.
im in a lull right now. im starting to feel empty, i know something is missing. im loosing feeling. my toes are numb. jeremy asked me to his homecoming by decorating my car and i have virtually no reaction. i dont care about anything. why cant i find something to care about? i need to go up or down. preferably down because then i can only go up. some how i think its safer that way. wow i like irony. so i guess ill just be waiting until my chemical imbalance hits. it might be induced by a hopeful weekend of being extremely drunk, oh if i were so lucky. ive been constantly eating too, its such a comfort thing for me. ive gained 5 pounds in less than a week. thats embarassing. whatever ill get over it. rumor has it guys dont like skinny girls anyway. but i do already have that homecoming dress. shit. i miss capitola. i want to be far away. i want to do so many things but i just dont have the time for them all. i need to go rock climbing. okay well thats enough complaining from me. goodnite world.