make me bleed... make me feel no pain
i really dont know what to do anymore. im NOT moving in with my aunt anymore. my dad keeps saying that my aunt is the one who fucked me over, but honestly, i know she didnt. i understand why im not going there, and i dont blame her, im not mad at her. i just really hope that she knows that. i love her so much, and im so grateful that she was going to do it in the first place.
i now have no where to live. my dad is still going to sell the house, and he said he's going to find somewhere for me to live. im really so sick of this. last night rachel called the police and asked them about neglect. i think if i reported my dad he might get in trouble. i dont know. im just so drained. i cant do this anymore, i really cant. i didnt go to school today because i was sick. whenever i get really emotional, like i am know, all the emotion makes me sick. im so sick of crying. im sick of hoping that one day i just wont wake up, im sick of seeing rachel so hurt. theres nothing i can do to help her. and it kills me.
i never would have guessed in a million years that this is what my life would be right now. i was talking to sarah last night, and honestly, when i get older im going to be so fucked up. im going to need some serious therapy. fuck that, i need it now.
im so scared, i really am. whats going to happen to me? i dont want to go to a foster home. thats the only thing i can think of that he can do.
i dont know. im going to go back to sleep. when i sleep, i feel no pain. i wish i could sleep forever
i now have no where to live. my dad is still going to sell the house, and he said he's going to find somewhere for me to live. im really so sick of this. last night rachel called the police and asked them about neglect. i think if i reported my dad he might get in trouble. i dont know. im just so drained. i cant do this anymore, i really cant. i didnt go to school today because i was sick. whenever i get really emotional, like i am know, all the emotion makes me sick. im so sick of crying. im sick of hoping that one day i just wont wake up, im sick of seeing rachel so hurt. theres nothing i can do to help her. and it kills me.
i never would have guessed in a million years that this is what my life would be right now. i was talking to sarah last night, and honestly, when i get older im going to be so fucked up. im going to need some serious therapy. fuck that, i need it now.
im so scared, i really am. whats going to happen to me? i dont want to go to a foster home. thats the only thing i can think of that he can do.
i dont know. im going to go back to sleep. when i sleep, i feel no pain. i wish i could sleep forever