328; reasons
why is it that when you hear the same question again after so long and you know the answer somewhere inside you but you can't voice it out, you can't form the answer in words. And you suddenly felt that you're out of words. What happened to the ability to form words. And that's when you feel that you need to start reading, start picking up books and not fanfictions(not that they're not good). You start thinking that it's because you're out of school and it feels like you haven't been using your brain to really think. But actually all along, it's experience that changes your answers; those standard answers that you used to give and think that it would be able to help and will help. But as time goes on, you, being on the same situations as you always heard from others. You realised what words you told them then didn't help. That they all just sound so nice out of the lips.
that is when you confuse, you misunderstood as loss of vocabulary. when you think you should pick up one of those books you left lying around still in their wrappers, just because of that nagging feeling of knowing it yet not being able to vocalise it.
this might be how i feel, but i still think it's time to really pick a book.
excuses.