Feb 22, 2010 13:19
This may sound a bit silly, but I'm a bit scared of my teacher. Last semester, he kept trying to push me more than the other students and I only wanted the semester to end so that I wouldn't have to deal with him ever again. Also, I felt that I never understood his instructions and whenever I brought him my papers, assignments, and other works, he always had negative comments and I had to redo most of my works. Never had this problem with any other teacher before, even though I had taken classes for two masters, which is lots of classes! I was so glad when the course had ended, yet life has weird turns.
I had planned my Practicum and my supervisor was going to be this female counselor that I really like. I wanted to learn from her because I was never able to take a class with her. By mid-December, with the semester ending, she called me to tell me that she was not going to be able to be my supervisor and my ex-teacher had offered. I was traumatized, to say the least, but when I saw that I got an A with him days later, I thought perhaps I was overreacting. I was wrong.
I started my Practicum with the teacher that freaks me out and I feel again like I am doing everything wrong. I also feel like he is a complete contradiction. One day he is expecting more from me like he sees lots of potential in me and the next day I feel like he is treating me like an airhead. I got angry last Friday because he told me that perhaps I should write a letter to the department to excuse myself from taking grade exam so that I can focus more on the Practicum. I know I can do all that I'm doing. I believe I can do the Practicum, study for grade exam and pass it, plus finish my thesis in order to graduate. Also, this is the first teacher who has ever called me to my cell phone. It's creepy! I hope in God I manage to do everything I want, pass, and never see this teacher ever again.