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Gods, you're asking me for relationship advice? You should know better than that by now; forget successful relationships, I haven't managed to have one relationship because I'm such a fool. I do think that, you're not going to change her. And the part of me that wants to keep you from getting hurt any further says "end it." And the part that wants to see my best friend happy says "keep it going." And the part of me that is incapable of letting go of a friend says "Don't give up." And the part of that is so, so jealous of her being able to see you, so jealous of the attention she's getting, so jealous of you two having fallen in love in the very room I sit and type these words...
If I tell you to break it off, will it seem that it's just my jealousy talking? But like we agreed before we discovered the truth, she's a lost cause. I want to tell you to stay with her, because you're both my friends and because I want to see you happy, and I want to tell you to end it because I know that it'll bring nothing but hurt in the end and because it's better to break it off now and because I am so very, very jealous. BEcause that jealousy is concealed under so many other things...
Because I cannot feel happiness for myself, I want to be able to smile for the two of you. Yet because I cannot feel happiness, I cannot stand having it around me.
So is it any wonder that I say to find the solution that is best for everyone? Perhaps for us, too, such a solution does not exist...
If I tell you to break it off, will it seem that it's just my jealousy talking? But like we agreed before we discovered the truth, she's a lost cause. I want to tell you to stay with her, because you're both my friends and because I want to see you happy, and I want to tell you to end it because I know that it'll bring nothing but hurt in the end and because it's better to break it off now and because I am so very, very jealous. BEcause that jealousy is concealed under so many other things...
Because I cannot feel happiness for myself, I want to be able to smile for the two of you. Yet because I cannot feel happiness, I cannot stand having it around me.
So is it any wonder that I say to find the solution that is best for everyone? Perhaps for us, too, such a solution does not exist...