my word!
my word! today was absolutely horrendous!!!
it all started on a bad note.
worst endometriosis cramps i have had in at least 3 years, if not the worst ever.
my lower back, my uterine area, my armpits, my thighs, and - this one's new! - my CALVES.
i vomited, and my body pretty much wanted to reject every part of it, i swear, my organs just felt like they all wanted to break out of me.
and i pretty much spent this morning laying on bed squirming and writhing in pain, crying on the phone with my mom.. whimpering and moaning
and of course, because of this, i lost out on 2 hours i had set aside to do some wrap-up studying for my chemistry midterm (that i had already worked on for at the very least 6 hours)
and, um... yeah. that's a terrible way to start off your day, and it made me quite cranky for the rest of the day
which of course makes people not want to be around me
which upsets me because then i feel like a terrible person
and then i get more depressed and more cranky and less fun to be around
and it's a rather terrible downward cycle
tomorrow is my biology test, and i generally enjoy those days (i love biology!)
so perhaps tomorrow will go better. it's my last test for a good while. at the very least, two weeks. i pray my spirits will be lifted!
please pray for me... for that same thing.
it all started on a bad note.
worst endometriosis cramps i have had in at least 3 years, if not the worst ever.
my lower back, my uterine area, my armpits, my thighs, and - this one's new! - my CALVES.
i vomited, and my body pretty much wanted to reject every part of it, i swear, my organs just felt like they all wanted to break out of me.
and i pretty much spent this morning laying on bed squirming and writhing in pain, crying on the phone with my mom.. whimpering and moaning
and of course, because of this, i lost out on 2 hours i had set aside to do some wrap-up studying for my chemistry midterm (that i had already worked on for at the very least 6 hours)
and, um... yeah. that's a terrible way to start off your day, and it made me quite cranky for the rest of the day
which of course makes people not want to be around me
which upsets me because then i feel like a terrible person
and then i get more depressed and more cranky and less fun to be around
and it's a rather terrible downward cycle
tomorrow is my biology test, and i generally enjoy those days (i love biology!)
so perhaps tomorrow will go better. it's my last test for a good while. at the very least, two weeks. i pray my spirits will be lifted!
please pray for me... for that same thing.