strange...
today i have experienced an interesting phenomenon, which i feel might coincide with the fact that the last lifegroup for the semester was on monday night, and the last dwelling place for the semester was tonight.
sigh.
i absolutely love those people, every one of them, and they love me back, and it's a deep, affectionate love, and it is wonderful thing. it's so caring.
gha, i can't even begin to describe it. it's so beyond what i am used to! it's.. it's just beautiful. it's... it's secure. that is what. it is secure. and that is something i am not used to!
so as i went through my day today, i sat and thought, and at moments i had a deep nostalgia and a longing for home, but at other times today, i had a deep longing to remain here with my friends here, to remain here where i feel safe, and secure, and where i don't have to fear awkward stare or moments of not knowing what to say . . .
or strange whispers and stares...
but i miss some people far too much to let that get me down. and i look forward to seeing them so much that it hurts!!!
sigh.
i absolutely love those people, every one of them, and they love me back, and it's a deep, affectionate love, and it is wonderful thing. it's so caring.
gha, i can't even begin to describe it. it's so beyond what i am used to! it's.. it's just beautiful. it's... it's secure. that is what. it is secure. and that is something i am not used to!
so as i went through my day today, i sat and thought, and at moments i had a deep nostalgia and a longing for home, but at other times today, i had a deep longing to remain here with my friends here, to remain here where i feel safe, and secure, and where i don't have to fear awkward stare or moments of not knowing what to say . . .
or strange whispers and stares...
but i miss some people far too much to let that get me down. and i look forward to seeing them so much that it hurts!!!