"thoughts"
well i am work as always and running around bored.that is just my usual day here at this bitch.i guess that is when i have more thughts than i would like.even listening 2 my radio the thoughts still come through.somedays i wish i had a sure fire method of just making them stop an maybe...just maybe go away 4 ever.
but just random thought are unavoidable i guess.like this one i just had not that it is a bad one or anything like my normal thoughts but still something that makes me think.something i rarely do or even like 2 do.i got a friend a close friend that has influenced me alot.i don't think i can really show how much i am grateful 4 that.but I truelly am.I am honored 2 have him as a brother cuz there are so many things that i can learn from such a person.
we are the same age but i swear he has been here b 4.sounds stupid i know but,just...i really don't know how 2 explain him so i am not going 2 try.I know what i mean an when i read this shit again i still will know what i mean.this is my lj.
he says i have grown alot and he can see a change.
I CAN NOT.i still feel the same way i did when we first met back in NOSGOTH.or Barder town as others might remember it.but i was a child in the mind then an just maybe a i have grown into a kid as of now.I don't know some where in me i know things i didn't back then but that just comes with living life i guess.So I really can't say that i have grown.yes i have a job but had one back then.yes I have a girlfriend that really cares 4 me but how long until I FUCK that UP.Its bound 2 happen.Its in my genes.
my daddy gave me this shit.I have 2 ask him one day if i ever see his ass again.I can LOVE but i just don't know if it is meant 2 last 4 me.so many dreams of it coming an going i just expect it 2 go at some point. BAH
i got 2 go i at work my car is parked somewhere it shouldn't be.and i just started 2 give myself a headache.So yes this is where we stop this bullshit some people call thinking.an this is Y ME......dat LIL boy hates 2 think.
but just random thought are unavoidable i guess.like this one i just had not that it is a bad one or anything like my normal thoughts but still something that makes me think.something i rarely do or even like 2 do.i got a friend a close friend that has influenced me alot.i don't think i can really show how much i am grateful 4 that.but I truelly am.I am honored 2 have him as a brother cuz there are so many things that i can learn from such a person.
we are the same age but i swear he has been here b 4.sounds stupid i know but,just...i really don't know how 2 explain him so i am not going 2 try.I know what i mean an when i read this shit again i still will know what i mean.this is my lj.
he says i have grown alot and he can see a change.
I CAN NOT.i still feel the same way i did when we first met back in NOSGOTH.or Barder town as others might remember it.but i was a child in the mind then an just maybe a i have grown into a kid as of now.I don't know some where in me i know things i didn't back then but that just comes with living life i guess.So I really can't say that i have grown.yes i have a job but had one back then.yes I have a girlfriend that really cares 4 me but how long until I FUCK that UP.Its bound 2 happen.Its in my genes.
my daddy gave me this shit.I have 2 ask him one day if i ever see his ass again.I can LOVE but i just don't know if it is meant 2 last 4 me.so many dreams of it coming an going i just expect it 2 go at some point. BAH
i got 2 go i at work my car is parked somewhere it shouldn't be.and i just started 2 give myself a headache.So yes this is where we stop this bullshit some people call thinking.an this is Y ME......dat LIL boy hates 2 think.