i don't even know..

[nah_nah8]

So winter break was really good. I love my friends! I'd be lost w/out them. The break had a few twists that I really didn't expect.. at all. It was just weird, I just didn't think it would happen. I don't know what to do right now. I don't even know how I feel.. well I guess I kinda know, I just don't know what to make of it. I love it but I hate it. I'm nervous and scared, but it's a good kind of nervous and scared. I want to be hopeful, but I can't help but be pessimistic. Why'd this have to happen.. why three days before I had to leave for school? I hate it, but yet in a way, I'm happy it happened. AAAAAAAAAHHHHHH.. I just don't know. This whole going away to school thing really messes up my life. Sometimes I don't understand why I went away, but then I look around.. at the freedom, at the laundry I have to wash, at the dishes I have to do, at everything that I have to do for myself.. that's when I remember, I needed to go away, for my own good. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but it's what I had to do to become who I am.

Grrr.. I don't wanna go to class tomorrow.. I wish break was longer.. Can't wait til summer '08.. wow, '08.. It feels like the years are passing by faster than the cars outside my window on the busy streets of Philadelphia.