I just don't know
I don't know why i'm here right now.. I have no idea what to write. I just know that i need to right something. I'm feeling so many different things right now. Maybe I just need to leave, and go off to college. Maybe I need to get far away from this place. I don't know what i've turned into, but I've found myself doing stuff that i know will hurt me, and I don't know how to stop. And i'm not looking for your pitty or someone to help me, so if thatr's what you think please just don't read this. I just need to let this all out, and this is the best way I know how. Every time i think something's finally going my way it turns in the complete opposite direction. How do I get to where I wanna be? I know exactly what i need.. at least i think i know, but I have no clue how to get it. I just want to get back to how things used to be. I know I've messed up and did things i shouldn't have done, but so has everyone else.. so have you. People make bad decisions all the time, but that doesn't mean I'm any less of a friend. One good thing I can say about myself is that I am a good friend, and I would do anything for my friendz. I'm just so sick of being in these one way relationships just because i'm not exactly like you and i don't agree with you on everything. I just want someone who cares as much about me as i do about them, i really don't think that's too much to ask. I need to go to bed now cuz writing this entry has pretyy much made me completely sober.
Drink the pain away..
Drink the pain away..