forever and a day
so i cant sleep so i figured id write in this. ive got three more finals then im done with this fucking year. its been rough lately. originally i had decided to commute to school next year but have recently changed my mind. i first decided to commute cuz i was suppose to room with sarah who i found out is insane. i cant deal with another insane roommate so i started thinking about my options about how to get out of living with her. i decided since i cant afford school anyways that living at home would save me alot. but then when i started talking to people who commute and going over my final aid from last year i realized that i would end up paying about the same to commute from home. then i would have to deal with gas and wear and tear on my car. so now im going to live on campus i just dont no what building. im trying to get a room with my current roommate since we get along good. this past week has actually felt like college. sad it only took 3 years. next year is going to be so hard and i need to graduate. i have to take a summer course which starts the 20th but its online so its different but im hoping the whole online thing will help me get through the class easier. i cant wait to be done with finals. i also cant wait to move on with my life. i just want to start my life with pj but our family's are holding us back. on friday i had my dance recital and pj came up for the day then he ended up staying over and we partied with my friends. it was sooo much fun we just hung out with friends but then we actually got to cuddle and sleep in a bed together. i understand that our parents dont want to promote us having sex and all but honestly they act like were 5. if he still went to framingham we would be able to sleep over every night. on one hand it makes our relationship better becuase we have to do everything slow so we really get to know each other but on the other hand it makes me want to grow up even more. i really just want to move out and move in with him. we talk alot about our life as its going to be but it would be so nice to actually go through with what we plan.