it will be one year in one hour
it will be one year in one hour and honestly i have never been so upset in my life.....we had the memorial mass on sunday and all i wanted to do was cry but i held it in cuz well its a regular mass and it would look weird if i was the only one crying but it was so hard being in the church again since the last time i was in there was for his funeral and well i bawled the entire time and barely remember it cuz i was so upset. i cant even write this without crying but i just dont know what to do. sometimes life comes at u so fast and u think ur ready but ur not....the one person i want to talk to isnt reachable so pretty much im out of luck.....pj is the first one i called when i found out and the only one i want to talk to right now....he just knows how to make me feel better and he always knows when im sad even when i lie to him and tell him im fine.....we started talking last tues again and we got to catch up which was nice but now its back to school and i have to wait three weeks before we talk again.....im not gunna let him go tho....i cant i just feel so happy when i talk to him that i dont want to give it up....ill fight for it i dont care, i love being with him more than anything its the only thing that makes me happy since everything just makes me sad.