Vanessa Carlton---> I miss you, Billy-kun!
Billy and I had a unique relationship.
He was gay. Yet he fell in love with me. I fell in love with him.
We dated for 4 days, and then had a several month-long fling after that.
Music played a very important part in the relationship I had with him. We had a "song" during those 4 days. After that, he gave me the song "Rinse" by Vanessa Carlton as a gentle nudge(/a light jab) in the right direction of healing.
I disagreed, and stood up and chose "Wanted", off of the same cd.
A silly little standing up, one that on the rare chance that we get to talk now-a-days, we always laugh over.
That was a weird relationship. :)
Anyways, I have been listening to those songs lately and thinking on the lyrics. There have been points in my life where I needed "Rinse", and since then, many that "Wanted" was more appropriate and strong. I know people who could really use these songs in their heads right now...
"Rinse"
She'd do anything to sparkle in his eye
She would suffer, she would fight, and compromise
She's been wishin' on the stars that shine so bright
For answers to the questions that will haunt her tonight
She must rinse this all away
She can't hold him this way
She must rinse this all away
She can't love him this way
How she'd be soothed, how she'd be saved if he could see
She needs to be held in his arms to be free
But everything happens for reasons that she will never understand
'til she knows the heart of a woman will never be found in the arms of a man
[Chorus]
And if she runs away she fears she won't be followed
What could be the worse than leaving something behind
And as the depth of oceans slowly become shallow
It's loneliness she finds...
If only he was mine
She'd do anything to sparkle in his eye
She would suffer, she would fight, and compromise
She's been wishin' on the stars that shine so bright
For answers to the questions that will haunt her tonight
She must rinse him
She must rinse him
She can't rinse him
She can't rinse him
She can't, she won't, she must rinse him
She can't, she won't, she must rinse him
She must rinse this all away
She can't hold him this way
She must rinse this all away
She can't love him this way
"Wanted"
I have wandered far and wide
for something real something to die for
but I have found you and you do not see
all that is me all that is true
I am more than you will see,
I am more than you will need,
I am more than you will see,
more than wanted
as you float the flimsy surface
you should know life lies beneath it
don't pretend you feel what I feel
for you live illusion and i am real
[chorus]
I know, I know you like the way
you feel when I play
I know, I know you don't really
hear what I say
I know, I know you are waiting
for something to raid
I know, I know you wish you could be
more than you say
I have wandered far and wide
for something real something to die for
but I have found you and you do not see
all that is me all that is true and
[chorus]
more than you'll love, more than you'll hate,
more than you'll hold, more than wanted
more than you'll crave, more than you'll cherish,
more than you'll have, more than wanted