(no subject)
I can't help but feel regret/sympathy towards those that my barriers have pushed away or caused them to move past me. I don't regret having said barriers, but rather the pain it causes to those that wish to persue me.
I cuddle, I kiss, hell, I make sexual advances, all with the knowing in mind that my walls are intact and they'll more than likely never get past them.
I want someone to shatter them, rip them apart and pave over the walls so they can never be rebuilt, because I can never willingly break down something that i've had as a safety net my entire life.
that's all. it's just what was on my mind.