luck.
i've said this enough times without knocking on wood just to make sure i don't fuck it up, and this definitely isn't me bragging, but i am one lucky mother fucker.
seriously, when the going gets tough, when i'm strung and thinned and stretched and pressed and stressed about whatever huge mess i have going on in my life (school, work, internship, family, relationships, amongst many things); whenever one little thing goes wrong or nothing has been worked on, whatever deadlines or task may be at hand, i pull through wonderfully. and, i know i will. granted, it is with giving it my 100% fucking all whenever i do decide to come around to it...at least for the most part. i do try my best to stay on top of my shit, reach for my dreams and allow new ones to come, stay, and/or go.
i get lucky.
i have the biggest hunch that it might be the "fuck it" mentality that has grown within me throughout the good majority of my life. 'cause seriously, fuck it. i love when whatever happens happens. i feel it truly is a good attitude and honest efforts that get you exactly where you should be at every moment in your life. whether you're at work, school, smokin' and bummin' on your homie's couch, eating alone, with a friend, blahblahblah...it's all relative and it's all good. a good amount of fortune tellers that i have gone to for kicks with mis amigas and one particular one that came to me during a break from class at SF State have told me that i have some sort of negativity in my life. well, they also all told me that i need these $300-$500 crystals and sessions and their prayers to help me get rid of it. i finally got the balls to speak against one - the one who tried to charge me $20 (instead of the regular $65 because SHE came to ME instead of me seeking her out) for her reading when i couldn't even buy a banana for 60 or so cents just 10 minutes before. i felt empowered to give her the truth: i am a student, i cannot afford these. some rich people might think their lives are so important that they need your sessions to take care of their horrible negativity, but i can live with it. EVERYONE has negative thoughts, it can't be helped. but, it's what you do, it's your actions that make all the difference...isn't that right? she agreed.
and, right now, i'm pressed for time on these final assignments and tests, but i know i'll work as much as i will and i'll get lucky with that. but, may be lucky doesn't even have to be the best, at least for me. lucky has to be what i deserve 'cause then i can take it, fuck it, and move on.
one other great note, got a sweet internship as an audio and light tech assistant this summer during my interview. that, made me really think of this luck business. holla.
seriously, when the going gets tough, when i'm strung and thinned and stretched and pressed and stressed about whatever huge mess i have going on in my life (school, work, internship, family, relationships, amongst many things); whenever one little thing goes wrong or nothing has been worked on, whatever deadlines or task may be at hand, i pull through wonderfully. and, i know i will. granted, it is with giving it my 100% fucking all whenever i do decide to come around to it...at least for the most part. i do try my best to stay on top of my shit, reach for my dreams and allow new ones to come, stay, and/or go.
i get lucky.
i have the biggest hunch that it might be the "fuck it" mentality that has grown within me throughout the good majority of my life. 'cause seriously, fuck it. i love when whatever happens happens. i feel it truly is a good attitude and honest efforts that get you exactly where you should be at every moment in your life. whether you're at work, school, smokin' and bummin' on your homie's couch, eating alone, with a friend, blahblahblah...it's all relative and it's all good. a good amount of fortune tellers that i have gone to for kicks with mis amigas and one particular one that came to me during a break from class at SF State have told me that i have some sort of negativity in my life. well, they also all told me that i need these $300-$500 crystals and sessions and their prayers to help me get rid of it. i finally got the balls to speak against one - the one who tried to charge me $20 (instead of the regular $65 because SHE came to ME instead of me seeking her out) for her reading when i couldn't even buy a banana for 60 or so cents just 10 minutes before. i felt empowered to give her the truth: i am a student, i cannot afford these. some rich people might think their lives are so important that they need your sessions to take care of their horrible negativity, but i can live with it. EVERYONE has negative thoughts, it can't be helped. but, it's what you do, it's your actions that make all the difference...isn't that right? she agreed.
and, right now, i'm pressed for time on these final assignments and tests, but i know i'll work as much as i will and i'll get lucky with that. but, may be lucky doesn't even have to be the best, at least for me. lucky has to be what i deserve 'cause then i can take it, fuck it, and move on.
one other great note, got a sweet internship as an audio and light tech assistant this summer during my interview. that, made me really think of this luck business. holla.