Half Full or Half Empty?
As I was walking this morning, I felt my stomach turn. I felt guilty, and I felt like I was doing something wrong.
As opportunities appear to do great things frequently, I yearn to enjoy them and be happy about it, but at the same time, I feel so guilty.
I feel guilty because I know that my mom, sister and aunt can't and will not experience this. They can't be here with me, they can't help me judge the comedy show, they can't drink with BDC, fly across the state.
It hurts me so much to call my mom everyday and realizing that she's working. Again, and again. Same with my aunt, and sister.
Since I have the opportunity, should I be enjoying every moment then?
Do I have to look deeper, and realize that maybe this is what they want me to do, to enjoy the advocacy, to make something out of myself and to actually work towards a successful goal?
Or by me "looking deeper" is just me rationalizing and making myself feel better?
I don't know..
great way to start the weekend.
As opportunities appear to do great things frequently, I yearn to enjoy them and be happy about it, but at the same time, I feel so guilty.
I feel guilty because I know that my mom, sister and aunt can't and will not experience this. They can't be here with me, they can't help me judge the comedy show, they can't drink with BDC, fly across the state.
It hurts me so much to call my mom everyday and realizing that she's working. Again, and again. Same with my aunt, and sister.
Since I have the opportunity, should I be enjoying every moment then?
Do I have to look deeper, and realize that maybe this is what they want me to do, to enjoy the advocacy, to make something out of myself and to actually work towards a successful goal?
Or by me "looking deeper" is just me rationalizing and making myself feel better?
I don't know..
great way to start the weekend.