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I feel helpless.
I AM completely helpless. I feel absolutely unable to pick myself up. I can't move myself out of this dark, haunting, lonely... horrible place. I've never felt so worthless in alone in my entire life. I've never taken a fall so bad where I just decided that laying there to cry was my only option. I am so broken on every level in my life right now. I am emotionally, mentally and physically in absolute shambles. I am alone. I have absolutely no control of anything right now. I can't recall a day in the last month where I haven't sobbed my eyes out. I am a big ball of self destruction right now.
I'm lost.
I'm lost.
I'm lost.
I'm lost.
I'm lost.
and I'm terrified.
I AM completely helpless. I feel absolutely unable to pick myself up. I can't move myself out of this dark, haunting, lonely... horrible place. I've never felt so worthless in alone in my entire life. I've never taken a fall so bad where I just decided that laying there to cry was my only option. I am so broken on every level in my life right now. I am emotionally, mentally and physically in absolute shambles. I am alone. I have absolutely no control of anything right now. I can't recall a day in the last month where I haven't sobbed my eyes out. I am a big ball of self destruction right now.
I'm lost.
I'm lost.
I'm lost.
I'm lost.
I'm lost.
and I'm terrified.