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“Jacob, think about what you’re doing.”
A crowd had gathered quickly, Seth and I behind Jacob and everyone else standing nearby ready to jump in if need be.
Sam stood tall watching Jacob with weary eyes, this wasn’t the first time they’d had this conversation.
Sam would send Jared along with a message and each time Jake would send him back on his way saying ‘thanks but no thanks.’
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Jacob I think it’s time you rejoined the pack.
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Jake we need you.
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This isn’t right.
Lately the messages seemed harsher and less like requests than orders, apparently two alpha males in La Push didn’t sit well with him.
“I have thought about it Sam. And like I’ve said before I’m not coming back.”
Sam smirked in a way that was so unfamiliar to me. It made me anxious.
“And what about Seth and Leah are you intent on keeping them away?” Seth and Leah even now, I was second best, I thought bitterly.
“Don’t act as though you know what's best for us Sam. We’ve made our decision.” I thought I heard a cheerful “yeah” from beside me but I couldn’t be sure, I was far too caught up glaring at Sam.
“Leah you don’t understand.” Came his reply. He wasn’t angry. He’d just said it calmly, as though I was simply not capable of understanding and should just accept his words as fact. My hands curled up into tight fists.
“He doesn’t mean it like that Leah.” My gaze dropped back to Jacob with an eyebrow raised. He sighed, brushing a hand through his hair. “What he meant is, even though he can’t explain what he feels right now there is something inside of him, telling him he needs to do this.” Her frown deepened as he paused, “ Its inside of me too.”
“What are you saying Jake?” Seth asked.
I felt vaguely betrayed, I was his Beta and he chose now to bring this out into the open.
“Today, I either lay claim to the old pack.” His eyes met mine, holding a fraction of apology but it wasn’t enough. I knew what was coming. “ Or I have to leave. We
can’t go back to the way we were, the wolf in me wont allow it.”
I could feel Seth’s distress from beside me, “but it doesn’t have to be that way, if we have to go back you guys wouldn’t have to -“
“They wouldn’t be able to stop themselves Seth.” I interrupted, feeling the weight of my words heavy on my tongue. “There cant be two alphas in a pack. Jake cant turn it back, its in his blood. If they stay together…they’ll fight” I stopped and made sure he was paying attention “until only one of them are breathing.”
Seth’s eyes widened and there was a collective gasp from Quil and Embry.
Sam was looking at me strangely, I could feel his gaze from the corner of my eyes but I couldn’t bear looking at him. I just couldn’t seem to escape him. Instead I clasped my hands together and looked vacantly towards them. “Jake,” I started quietly, “what are you going to do?”
I knew before I’d even asked. I’d known by the way he couldn’t even look at me.
“Leah,” His voice had dropped, to a tone I’d heard only a few times with Jacob. When he got really serious, when he was sad, when he was thinking about how things could have been.
I shook my head once, a small smile on my face. I Scratched at the hot skin beneath my ear, too hot. I took a breath. I wouldn’t fall apart, I wouldn’t give them the benefit.
“I don’t have a choice.”
I scoffed, “That’s all I hear from you these days.”
Sam’s eyes narrowed but I refused to look at him.
“They’re Sam’s pack I ca-“
“And we’re yours,” Fight for us.
His mouth opened and closed, several times but it spoke volumes.
“Okay” I said and walked away.
“Leah. Open the door” He growled.
“Why are you here? You should leave before you or Sam spontaneously combust.”
I heard him slump outside my bedroom door. There was a loud bang and a muffled curse.
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“I wont fight Sam….I cant…you know that.” His voice breaks and I blink away the moisture.
“I’m not asking you to fight, but I… how could you just spring this on me?” Those months we’d spent building up a friendship and it wasn’t worth a damn thing.
“I didn’t even know my decision until just then. This isn’t easy for me either you -“
“So where are they going?” I asked.
There was a silence behind my door. The leg I had thrown over the other began to shake, I don’t know why I was surprised.
“…Alaska.”
“Leave Jake.”
“It’s not like that.” So he wasn’t abandoning us to frolic with Nessie and the rest of them. I wasn’t convinced. “Really, it’s not. Edward knew what was gonna happen, they figured it would be best if Nessie wasn’t separated from me.” I wiped my face with the back of my sleeve. “I didn’t plan this Leah. I swear.”
“So me and Seth are supposed to just run back to Sam like good little dogs?” I heard his sigh through the space and he dropped his head back onto my door. It thumped again and again.
“ I don’t want you guys to be alone, its for the best if -“
“Do you not remember what it was like for me Jake? Or are you conveniently forgetting that. It doesn’t quite fit into your noble plan.” I was so tired. Something has to be wrong with you when you come to expect the people closest to you to screw you over.
“That was then, You’re stronger now girlie wolf, it’ll be different.” My eyes closed at the familiar nickname. How dare he?
The worst part of it was that deep down I knew he thought he was doing the right thing for all of them. I’d known this was coming all along. The fucking bastard.
I clicked open the door, catching him by surprise, his eyes were wide as he looked at me concerned as he always did when he was trying to make me better. “I don’t want to leave with you angry at me Leah,” his voice caught in his throat, he closed his eyes and held a closed fist to his mouth. “ You’re kind of my best friend.”
So I did my final act as beta. I wrapped my arms around him, “Take care of yourself Jacob Black.” His back sagged subtly in relief, kid never could hide his feelings.
He leaned forward and dropped a warm kiss on my temple. He lingered there and sighed.
“Have you said your goodbyes to Seth?” I asked still feeling his warmth around me.
“We can still talk ya know, it’s not the dark ages, get out of your cave girlie wolf, this isn’t goodbye.” He said trying to lighten the mood.
“You should find Seth.”
His arms tightened around me for a brief moment and then he dropped his arms backing away with a mock salute.
“On it…Talk to you soon Leah.”
Leah Clearwater left the reservation before she ever rejoined Sam’s pack.
If there was one thing she was it was loyal, she’d made a choice (a pledge) to join the renegades, she’d marked her role as beta. Jacob was her Alpha, she wouldn’t submit to anyone else…the wolf in her just wouldn’t allow it.
Funny thing is, she would of followed Jake wherever he needed to go. If only he’d asked.
She decided to try a new path, far away from anywhere dark and cloudy and she didn’t look back once.
.
“Jacob, think about what you’re doing.”
A crowd had gathered quickly, Seth and I behind Jacob and everyone else standing nearby ready to jump in if need be.
Sam stood tall watching Jacob with weary eyes, this wasn’t the first time they’d had this conversation.
Sam would send Jared along with a message and each time Jake would send him back on his way saying ‘thanks but no thanks.’
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Jacob I think it’s time you rejoined the pack.
****
Jake we need you.
****
This isn’t right.
Lately the messages seemed harsher and less like requests than orders, apparently two alpha males in La Push didn’t sit well with him.
“I have thought about it Sam. And like I’ve said before I’m not coming back.”
Sam smirked in a way that was so unfamiliar to me. It made me anxious.
“And what about Seth and Leah are you intent on keeping them away?” Seth and Leah even now, I was second best, I thought bitterly.
“Don’t act as though you know what's best for us Sam. We’ve made our decision.” I thought I heard a cheerful “yeah” from beside me but I couldn’t be sure, I was far too caught up glaring at Sam.
“Leah you don’t understand.” Came his reply. He wasn’t angry. He’d just said it calmly, as though I was simply not capable of understanding and should just accept his words as fact. My hands curled up into tight fists.
“He doesn’t mean it like that Leah.” My gaze dropped back to Jacob with an eyebrow raised. He sighed, brushing a hand through his hair. “What he meant is, even though he can’t explain what he feels right now there is something inside of him, telling him he needs to do this.” Her frown deepened as he paused, “ Its inside of me too.”
“What are you saying Jake?” Seth asked.
I felt vaguely betrayed, I was his Beta and he chose now to bring this out into the open.
“Today, I either lay claim to the old pack.” His eyes met mine, holding a fraction of apology but it wasn’t enough. I knew what was coming. “ Or I have to leave. We
can’t go back to the way we were, the wolf in me wont allow it.”
I could feel Seth’s distress from beside me, “but it doesn’t have to be that way, if we have to go back you guys wouldn’t have to -“
“They wouldn’t be able to stop themselves Seth.” I interrupted, feeling the weight of my words heavy on my tongue. “There cant be two alphas in a pack. Jake cant turn it back, its in his blood. If they stay together…they’ll fight” I stopped and made sure he was paying attention “until only one of them are breathing.”
Seth’s eyes widened and there was a collective gasp from Quil and Embry.
Sam was looking at me strangely, I could feel his gaze from the corner of my eyes but I couldn’t bear looking at him. I just couldn’t seem to escape him. Instead I clasped my hands together and looked vacantly towards them. “Jake,” I started quietly, “what are you going to do?”
I knew before I’d even asked. I’d known by the way he couldn’t even look at me.
“Leah,” His voice had dropped, to a tone I’d heard only a few times with Jacob. When he got really serious, when he was sad, when he was thinking about how things could have been.
I shook my head once, a small smile on my face. I Scratched at the hot skin beneath my ear, too hot. I took a breath. I wouldn’t fall apart, I wouldn’t give them the benefit.
“I don’t have a choice.”
I scoffed, “That’s all I hear from you these days.”
Sam’s eyes narrowed but I refused to look at him.
“They’re Sam’s pack I ca-“
“And we’re yours,” Fight for us.
His mouth opened and closed, several times but it spoke volumes.
“Okay” I said and walked away.
“Leah. Open the door” He growled.
“Why are you here? You should leave before you or Sam spontaneously combust.”
I heard him slump outside my bedroom door. There was a loud bang and a muffled curse.
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“I wont fight Sam….I cant…you know that.” His voice breaks and I blink away the moisture.
“I’m not asking you to fight, but I… how could you just spring this on me?” Those months we’d spent building up a friendship and it wasn’t worth a damn thing.
“I didn’t even know my decision until just then. This isn’t easy for me either you -“
“So where are they going?” I asked.
There was a silence behind my door. The leg I had thrown over the other began to shake, I don’t know why I was surprised.
“…Alaska.”
“Leave Jake.”
“It’s not like that.” So he wasn’t abandoning us to frolic with Nessie and the rest of them. I wasn’t convinced. “Really, it’s not. Edward knew what was gonna happen, they figured it would be best if Nessie wasn’t separated from me.” I wiped my face with the back of my sleeve. “I didn’t plan this Leah. I swear.”
“So me and Seth are supposed to just run back to Sam like good little dogs?” I heard his sigh through the space and he dropped his head back onto my door. It thumped again and again.
“ I don’t want you guys to be alone, its for the best if -“
“Do you not remember what it was like for me Jake? Or are you conveniently forgetting that. It doesn’t quite fit into your noble plan.” I was so tired. Something has to be wrong with you when you come to expect the people closest to you to screw you over.
“That was then, You’re stronger now girlie wolf, it’ll be different.” My eyes closed at the familiar nickname. How dare he?
The worst part of it was that deep down I knew he thought he was doing the right thing for all of them. I’d known this was coming all along. The fucking bastard.
I clicked open the door, catching him by surprise, his eyes were wide as he looked at me concerned as he always did when he was trying to make me better. “I don’t want to leave with you angry at me Leah,” his voice caught in his throat, he closed his eyes and held a closed fist to his mouth. “ You’re kind of my best friend.”
So I did my final act as beta. I wrapped my arms around him, “Take care of yourself Jacob Black.” His back sagged subtly in relief, kid never could hide his feelings.
He leaned forward and dropped a warm kiss on my temple. He lingered there and sighed.
“Have you said your goodbyes to Seth?” I asked still feeling his warmth around me.
“We can still talk ya know, it’s not the dark ages, get out of your cave girlie wolf, this isn’t goodbye.” He said trying to lighten the mood.
“You should find Seth.”
His arms tightened around me for a brief moment and then he dropped his arms backing away with a mock salute.
“On it…Talk to you soon Leah.”
Leah Clearwater left the reservation before she ever rejoined Sam’s pack.
If there was one thing she was it was loyal, she’d made a choice (a pledge) to join the renegades, she’d marked her role as beta. Jacob was her Alpha, she wouldn’t submit to anyone else…the wolf in her just wouldn’t allow it.
Funny thing is, she would of followed Jake wherever he needed to go. If only he’d asked.
She decided to try a new path, far away from anywhere dark and cloudy and she didn’t look back once.
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