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Quick update:
- yesterday went on a five hour road trip with scott. It was so nice to be in a car and drive away from school. On the other hand, I was stressing out the whole time worried about school and working with Spanish. It was cool to see such a different school with such opposite courses. he's in fisheries and forestry. neat.
- high table last night, fancy dinner with floor. Was late due to road trip + assignment.
- spanish test this morning. went okay, I hope. Okay enough, anyway.
- studying chem today was less than remotely productive, I literally didn't absorb ANYTHING, and am pretty much giving away five percent of my chem mark tomorrow. yes, this upsets me. but... it is what it is and I need to stay positive because there is far too much more work to come.
- spent forever getting rid of the balloons in my room today; 5 or 6 people took an hour to deflate them all. Corey had fun terrifying me and making me scream several times. way too much fun; he likes to cause people too much pain. Scotty was late for poppage. Laura and I had a blast with those balloons. Ev came to join us eventually. One exploded in my lap and I was tense for awhile. Turns out I'm scared of balloons. Who knew.
- In the middle of my worry/feeling sick/whatever episode tonight, scott drove laura ev and I to Dairy Queen. I'm having a lot of trouble being in high spirits because school is taking over me, it feels like.
- I'm going to Guelph this weekend. I wish I could just go there and have a blast without worries... And it disappoints me to death but I'm so worried about school I'm scared I won't be able to enjoy it; I have to give quite the presentation on a study to my bio class tuesday and that involves SO much work that just hasn't been done. I've pulled crap off before, I'll do it again. I've gotta believe in my ability to succeed at that. I can. Little engine that could; damn right I am.
With that i'm done.
I'm missing the water cross with the hicks this weekend. that's disappointng; I was kind of looking forward to watching them go.
I've never felt so defeated/ehausted from school. This needs to end soon; I feel like it CAN'T continue like this... I'm exhausted all the time. I can't sleep, I can't think about other things. That's the other thing, I'm not going to be able to sleep in for another year and a half or so. It's really starting to affect me too strongly.
Mom makes my every day. Oh the smiles she puts on my face.
Anyway, that's all for now folks
love nat
- yesterday went on a five hour road trip with scott. It was so nice to be in a car and drive away from school. On the other hand, I was stressing out the whole time worried about school and working with Spanish. It was cool to see such a different school with such opposite courses. he's in fisheries and forestry. neat.
- high table last night, fancy dinner with floor. Was late due to road trip + assignment.
- spanish test this morning. went okay, I hope. Okay enough, anyway.
- studying chem today was less than remotely productive, I literally didn't absorb ANYTHING, and am pretty much giving away five percent of my chem mark tomorrow. yes, this upsets me. but... it is what it is and I need to stay positive because there is far too much more work to come.
- spent forever getting rid of the balloons in my room today; 5 or 6 people took an hour to deflate them all. Corey had fun terrifying me and making me scream several times. way too much fun; he likes to cause people too much pain. Scotty was late for poppage. Laura and I had a blast with those balloons. Ev came to join us eventually. One exploded in my lap and I was tense for awhile. Turns out I'm scared of balloons. Who knew.
- In the middle of my worry/feeling sick/whatever episode tonight, scott drove laura ev and I to Dairy Queen. I'm having a lot of trouble being in high spirits because school is taking over me, it feels like.
- I'm going to Guelph this weekend. I wish I could just go there and have a blast without worries... And it disappoints me to death but I'm so worried about school I'm scared I won't be able to enjoy it; I have to give quite the presentation on a study to my bio class tuesday and that involves SO much work that just hasn't been done. I've pulled crap off before, I'll do it again. I've gotta believe in my ability to succeed at that. I can. Little engine that could; damn right I am.
With that i'm done.
I'm missing the water cross with the hicks this weekend. that's disappointng; I was kind of looking forward to watching them go.
I've never felt so defeated/ehausted from school. This needs to end soon; I feel like it CAN'T continue like this... I'm exhausted all the time. I can't sleep, I can't think about other things. That's the other thing, I'm not going to be able to sleep in for another year and a half or so. It's really starting to affect me too strongly.
Mom makes my every day. Oh the smiles she puts on my face.
Anyway, that's all for now folks
love nat