Oh God!!! Why???? Why the fuck does it happen to me????
I was in a fight with one of my best friends today, when she told me out of no where that she had the disease leukemia. Why God!!!! Why did you have to do this to her, I am so use to seeing her smiling face walk down the hallway, and her running up to me and giving me a great big hug. She is the one that brightens my day. I can't stand this, what are you suppose to do when your friend looks you in the eyes and says i am going to die within a year. I know what I did, my knees buckled and the world felt as if it were spinning out of control. I started crying, she told me to be strong, everythng will be fine and everything will be just fine. I can't stand this. I like her a lot, and of course I love her, she is one of my best friends. God why would you do this to such a perfect person in my life. She has never done anything wrong to anybody! WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!?!?!?!?!?!? I just don't understand and as I am sitting here with tears rolling down my face, I will always remember this moment, a moment of pure hatred. People with leukemia now have more treatment choices and more hope for survival than ever before. Doctors keep finding new treatments for leukemia and ways to help people with leukemia have better lives. We are continually learning more about leukemia, its prevention, detection, and treatment. This section will discuss all of these areas. The Leukemia section below discusses what we know about leukemia in general as well as its risk factors and detection. Other sections cover treatments and symptom management.
What is Leukemia?
Leukemia is cancer that affects the bone marrow, where blood cells are produced.
What are Normal Blood Cells?
Blood is made up of liquid, called plasma, and three kinds of cells. Each kind of cell has a special task:
White blood cells help the body fight infection and disease.
Red blood cells carry oxygen from the lungs to the body’s tissues and carry carbon dioxide from the tissues to the lungs.
Platelets help form blood clots and control bleeding.
Blood cells are made in the soft center of the bones called the bone marrow. In adults, active bone marrow is found in the hip bones, ribs, spine, and skull. Normal cells in the bone marrow develop from very immature cells into mature cells ready to leave the bone marrow. Early, less mature forms of new blood cells are called blasts.
As cells mature in the bone marrow, they become smaller and more compact, and are better able to perform their special jobs. Some new blood cells remain in the bone marrow to grow, while others move to other parts of the body to grow. Blood cells are produced at a higher rate when the body needs them, such as when a person has an infection or anemia. This process helps the body stay healthy.
What are Leukemic Cells?
When a person has leukemia, the body produces too many blood cells of one type. These abnormal cells, usually white blood cells, look different than normal blood cells and do not function correctly. They also interfere with other blood cells, usually red blood cells and platelets.
Types of Leukemia
Two types of abnormal white blood cells can turn into leukemia: lymphoid cells and myeloid cells. When leukemia involves in the lymphoid cells, it is called lymphocytic or lymphoblastic leukemia. When it is found in the myeloid cells, it is called myelogenous or myeloid leukemia.
Leukemia is grouped in two ways:
Acute or chronic (depending on how fast the cells grow)
Lymphoid or myeloid (depending on the type of white blood cell that has turned into leukemia)
In acute leukemia, the abnormal blood cells are usually immature blasts (young cells) that do not function properly. These cells grow quickly. Acute leukemia quickly gets worse unless it is treated immediately.
In chronic leukemia, young blood cells are present, but mature, functional cells are also produced. In chronic leukemia, blasts grow slowly. It takes longer for the disease to get worse.
The song that I feel like is:
I feel so, by Box Car Racer
Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
What is Leukemia?
Leukemia is cancer that affects the bone marrow, where blood cells are produced.
What are Normal Blood Cells?
Blood is made up of liquid, called plasma, and three kinds of cells. Each kind of cell has a special task:
White blood cells help the body fight infection and disease.
Red blood cells carry oxygen from the lungs to the body’s tissues and carry carbon dioxide from the tissues to the lungs.
Platelets help form blood clots and control bleeding.
Blood cells are made in the soft center of the bones called the bone marrow. In adults, active bone marrow is found in the hip bones, ribs, spine, and skull. Normal cells in the bone marrow develop from very immature cells into mature cells ready to leave the bone marrow. Early, less mature forms of new blood cells are called blasts.
As cells mature in the bone marrow, they become smaller and more compact, and are better able to perform their special jobs. Some new blood cells remain in the bone marrow to grow, while others move to other parts of the body to grow. Blood cells are produced at a higher rate when the body needs them, such as when a person has an infection or anemia. This process helps the body stay healthy.
What are Leukemic Cells?
When a person has leukemia, the body produces too many blood cells of one type. These abnormal cells, usually white blood cells, look different than normal blood cells and do not function correctly. They also interfere with other blood cells, usually red blood cells and platelets.
Types of Leukemia
Two types of abnormal white blood cells can turn into leukemia: lymphoid cells and myeloid cells. When leukemia involves in the lymphoid cells, it is called lymphocytic or lymphoblastic leukemia. When it is found in the myeloid cells, it is called myelogenous or myeloid leukemia.
Leukemia is grouped in two ways:
Acute or chronic (depending on how fast the cells grow)
Lymphoid or myeloid (depending on the type of white blood cell that has turned into leukemia)
In acute leukemia, the abnormal blood cells are usually immature blasts (young cells) that do not function properly. These cells grow quickly. Acute leukemia quickly gets worse unless it is treated immediately.
In chronic leukemia, young blood cells are present, but mature, functional cells are also produced. In chronic leukemia, blasts grow slowly. It takes longer for the disease to get worse.
The song that I feel like is:
I feel so, by Box Car Racer
Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over